[31 M) Keats - My Journal

Hey everyone, I’ve been in this fight for some time, since I was 17 actually.

Have had some degree of success in the past, my most recent and longest streak being 117 days this august (as a married man, this was not a hardmode streak).

Unfortuntely since my relapse I’ve had a lot more relapses and September and October (so far) have been pretty bad for me.

Found this app and decided to join this forum for the extra accountability.

I try not to overspend too much time on my phone so I can’t promise I will be updating this journal daily but I did feel like it would be good to put this out here and have a place I can go to if I need to write things out.

I’m currently on Day 3.

Please feel free to follow my progress for mutual encouragement and support. My sharing code is: 09n80b

-Keats

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Welcome on board Keats!

We are here to support you :+1:

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Good brother…but since you are married then sex is not counted in relapse.
You know masterbation (dreaming)
Sex(reality) both are different things…all the best

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7 Days down

Congrats to my companions, @stranger64 on passing the 1 week mark and @Limmy at 2 weeks. Good stuff, gentlemen.

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Well done my friend, stay strong. Thanks for the mention. :+1:

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Sorry to hear about your relapse. What you’ve done so far is still an achievement!

This doesn’t work for everyone but I’ve found taking St John’s Wort (425 mg tablet per day) incredibly helpful. I’m on day 15 so far and the urges have been minimal apart from on one day when I was hungover, but even then I was able to manage. Give it a try, they take about 3-4 days to kick in. I’ll be honest, I’m not sure if I would have got this far without them.

Stay strong! :muscle:

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Day 4 - complete

@Limmy, thanks for the encouragement and suggestion. Great job on your streak man!

I’m doing hardmode on this new run so far and hope to do so for the next little while as I think it will help clear my head faster.

Keep going strong everyone!

Day 5 (sunday) - complete

Had one of the best weekends in a long time.

Really came done to cutting my phone out of it.

Day 6 (monday) - complete

Almost 1 week! Keep doing!

Day 7 (Sunday) - complete

I’ve decided to start this journal up again by logging in my goals for the week.

My 3 goals for this week are:

  • Bed by 9:30pm Sunday to Thursday.
    11:00pm Friday to Saturday

  • 10h30m music related deep work

  • 4h35m educational deep work

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Day 14 :white_check_mark:

March 14-20

Bed:

Sunday-Thursday Goal: 9:30pm
Friday-Saturday Goal: 11:30pm

Sunday - (didn’t record)
Monday - (didn’t record)
Tuesday - (didn’t record)
Wednesday - 11:45pm
Thursday - 10:17pm
Friday - (didn’t record)
Saturday - 2:18am

Deep Work:

  • Music: 1h45m
    (Goal: 10h30m)

  • Education: 1h10m
    (Goal: 4h30m)

Admittedly a poor showing meeting my goals this week but got to start somewhere.

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Day 0

March 21-27

Bed:

Sunday-Thursday Goal: 9:30pm
Friday-Saturday Goal: 11:30pm

Sunday - 12:00am
Monday - 9:30pm :white_check_mark:
Tuesday - 9:30pm :white_check_mark:
Wednesday - 9:30pm :white_check_mark:
Thursday - 9:30pm :white_check_mark:
Friday - (didn’t record)
Saturday - (didn’t record)

Deep Work:

  • Music: 4h5m
    (Goal: 10h30m)
  • Education: 1h
    (Goal: 4h30m)

Sleep was better this week but would still like to get into the habit of recording it every night.

I also relapsed this Monday morning which is a tough pill to swallow. I think I will keep up a daily report here on my streak as motivation not to fall back into old patterns.

My goal is a clean day for the rest of the day, and to work on a plan forward.

Day 1 :white_check_mark:

Day 0

Starting again.

Some things to track

  • No internet on any devices at home or out except for work related essentials.
  • No phone past entrance of house

Starting with that

Day 1 :white_check_mark:

  • No internet on any devices at home or out except for work related essentials :heavy_check_mark:

  • No phone past entrance of house :heavy_check_mark: