[29M] Forerunner's Diary - Ascension to Greatness 🙇🏾

Thank GOD for another day of freedom!



Day 24 - 8th June 2024
Rank: Farmhand


Lord, I thank you for consistency.


Daily Activities:

:white_check_mark: Time Alone with GOD
:white_check_mark: Listened to Qur’an Recitation
:white_check_mark: Studying the Qur’an
:white_check_mark: Kept Eyes Pure
:white_check_mark: Early Riser - Up by 5 AM
:white_check_mark: Listened to Motivational Content
:white_check_mark: Listened to NoPMO Motivational Content
:white_check_mark: PMO Recovery Work
:white_check_mark: Listening to Audiobook
:white_check_mark: Reading NoPMO Book “The Freedom Model” and Taking Notes
:white_check_mark: Dose of LSD (Laughter, Singing and Dancing)
:white_check_mark: Intermittent Fasting (22 hours)
:white_check_mark: Daily Walking (18 km)
:white_check_mark: Exercised at the Gym
:white_check_mark: Cold Shower
:white_check_mark: Taking Vitamins and Supplements
:white_check_mark: Listened to Uplifting Music
:white_check_mark: Relaxation
:white_check_mark: Conversations with Loved Ones
:white_check_mark: Looking after my Family
:white_check_mark: Spent Time with Family
:white_check_mark: Conversation with a NoPMO Brother
:white_check_mark: Supported a Friend
:white_check_mark: Worked on Online Business
:white_check_mark: Journaling
:white_check_mark: Gratitude
:white_check_mark: Reflection
:white_check_mark: Edited and Uploaded Video


Prime Objective:
Live free and clean

Entry:
Another successful day, Forerunner.

No difficulty or struggle. It’s becoming easier to continue as you approach the first month.

Don’t let your guard down. Backrunner wants you to feel a false sense of security. Stay vigilant. Remember why you’re making the choice to be free. Read your reasons every day. Fear not and don’t doubt, this is the best path for you.



Always thank GOD for everything.


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Man your consistency leaves me speechless :zipper_mouth_face:
Keep going :fire: :fire: :fire:

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Thank GOD for another day of freedom!



Day 25 - 9th June 2024
Rank: Servant


Lord, I thank you for my health and the health of those around me.


Daily Activities:

:white_check_mark: Prayers
:white_check_mark: Time Alone with GOD
:white_check_mark: Studying the Qur’an
:white_check_mark: Kept Eyes Pure
:white_check_mark: Listened to Motivational Content
:white_check_mark: Listened to NoPMO Motivational Content
:white_check_mark: PMO Recovery Work
:white_check_mark: Dose of LSD (Laughter, Singing and Dancing)
:white_check_mark: Dry Fasting (22 hours)
:white_check_mark: Daily Walking (12.7 km)
:white_check_mark: Looking after My Health
:white_check_mark: Cold Shower
:white_check_mark: Taking Vitamins and Supplements
:white_check_mark: Listened to Uplifting Music
:white_check_mark: Relaxation
:white_check_mark: Conversations with Loved Ones
:white_check_mark: Household Errands
:white_check_mark: Spent Time with Family
:white_check_mark: Phone Call with a NoPMO Brother
:white_check_mark: Phone Call with Accountability Partner
:white_check_mark: Supported a Friend
:white_check_mark: Journaling
:white_check_mark: Gratitude
:white_check_mark: Reflection
:white_check_mark: Recorded Video
:white_check_mark: Edited and Uploaded Video

:crossed_swords: Urges Defeated: 1


Adverse Events:

Involuntary Ejaculations: 1
Sexual Dreams: 1


Prime Objective:
Live free and clean

Critical Moment:
I was at home during the weekend and a flashback of a ■■■■ game I used to play came into my mind.

Backrunner’s Lies:
C’mon man, you never completed that game. You gotta go back and finish it.
You can always start again.
You won’t be happy if you leave things uncompleted. Finish the game. Finish all the games!

How I want to think next time:
I am happy to be improving every day. I am proud of myself for what I have achieved. I am glad to be in a good place by God’s grace. I am happy to be missing out on suffering and misery. I love feeling in control of my life and having hope again. I hate falling down again and again. I don’t want to go back to zero. I didn’t come this far just to come this far.



Always thank GOD for everything.


@Binocular Thanks brother. The consistency is a blessing from God; I used to be a very lazy person. I will continue developing my self with God’s help.

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Damn, you explored those dark areas too.
Now I understand why you used to say you were so much into the trap before.

But presently you are doing great and that’s what matters.

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your discipline is admirable man! I am trying to be consistent but it is very difficult, I can mantain discipline for 3 days,and then everything falls apart.

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Thank GOD for the last 25 days of freedom!

Reflection and Self-Appreciation:
Days 1-25: 16th May to 9th June 2024


In the last 25 days I have:

:white_check_mark: Deleted days’ worth of pornography and made a clean start
:white_check_mark: Invested money in my affiliate marketing business
:white_check_mark: Completed more than 10 lectures for my Quranic studies
:white_check_mark: Read more of the Freedom Model
:white_check_mark: Continued exercising at the gym and increasing difficulty levels
:white_check_mark: Become more productive, spending less time gaming or watching TV shows and movies
:white_check_mark: Been grateful to feel my confidence returning and my self-esteem improving once again
:white_check_mark: Improved my mindset and understanding of my freedom to choose and my pursuit of happiness

In the next 25 days, LORD willing, I want to:

:chart_with_upwards_trend: Study the Qur’an more by completing at least 25 Qur’anic lectures
:chart_with_upwards_trend: Lose at least another 6 kg by stopping overeating, cutting back on junk food, regular exercise and consistently intermittent fasting
:chart_with_upwards_trend: Put more energy into my affiliate marketing business by creating at least 125 posts for social media
:chart_with_upwards_trend: Finish reading 2 books with detailed notes
:chart_with_upwards_trend: Start working through a video editing course
:chart_with_upwards_trend: Find a system to start learning Quranic Arabic



Always thank GOD for everything.

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Day 26 - 10th June 2024
Rank: Servant


Lord, I thank you for the belief that I can be better than I have ever been.


Daily Activities:

:white_check_mark: Prayers
:white_check_mark: Time Alone with GOD
:white_check_mark: Listened to Qur’an Recitation
:white_check_mark: Studying the Qur’an
:white_check_mark: Kept Eyes Pure
:white_check_mark: Early Riser - Up by 5 AM
:white_check_mark: Plan for the Day
:white_check_mark: Planning for the Future
:white_check_mark: Listened to Motivational Content
:white_check_mark: Listened to NoPMO Motivational Content
:white_check_mark: Watched Educational Videos
:white_check_mark: PMO Recovery Work
:white_check_mark: Reading NoPMO Book “The Freedom Model” and Taking Notes
:white_check_mark: Dose of LSD (Laughter, Singing and Dancing)
:white_check_mark: Intermittent Fasting (24 hours)
:white_check_mark: Dental Hygiene
:white_check_mark: Daily Walking (16 km)
:white_check_mark: 100 Pushups, Sit-Ups and Squats
:white_check_mark: Exercised at the Gym
:white_check_mark: Cold Shower
:white_check_mark: Taking Vitamins and Supplements
:white_check_mark: Listened to Uplifting Music
:white_check_mark: Relaxation
:white_check_mark: Conversations with Loved Ones
:white_check_mark: Looking after my Family
:white_check_mark: Spent Time with Family
:white_check_mark: Conversation with a NoPMO Brother
:white_check_mark: Check-in with Accountability Partner
:white_check_mark: Supported a Friend
:white_check_mark: Shift at Work (8AM - 4PM)
:white_check_mark: Worked on Online Business
:white_check_mark: Journaling
:white_check_mark: Gratitude
:white_check_mark: Reflection
:white_check_mark: Recorded Video
:white_check_mark: Edited and Uploaded Video


Adverse Events:

Involuntary Ejaculations: 2


Prime Objective:
Live free and clean

Entry:
One milestone completed, Forerunner.

You’ve made great progress. I know you can feel the desire for PMO dying with each passing day. You are happy to live your life free and clean and don’t want to ruin it by going backwards.

Good people can do evil things sometimes. PMO is a disgusting activity. There is so much pain and suffering on both sides of the screen. Forgive yourself for your past, and make a better future.

You will always have the power to choose, as you have in the past. You can choose differently this time. Backrunner will not be quiet forever. When he comes back, remember all the benefits you’re feeling right now. Remember all the reasons you have to continue moving forward. Your Lord is always with you and has given you all the tools you need to win the war at long last.



Always thank GOD for everything.


I was an extreme addict, bro. Even after joining this forum in 2018 and gaining all sorts of knowledge on NoPMO and how to quit, I kept escalating to darker fetishes and binging for longer and longer. When I was absent from the forum, it was really bad, sometimes 16-18 hours a day of binging, only stopping to eat, sleep or do some family errands quickly so no one would disturb me in my room.

You said it best, man. The past is gone but the present moment is a gift :gift:

Thanks, bro. You can be consistent, too, no doubt about it. Get to the point where there are no arguments or debates in your head about whether you will get the work done or not - you get it done regardless of how you feel. I often don’t feel like getting things done, but I do it anyway. And I’m always glad I did afterwards.

Find strong enough reasons to drive you to continue the disciplined habits on days when motivation is low. For me, I have to be successful. I must make something of my potential and earn the money to help my mother retire. I can’t see her working into her 70s and 80s while knowing I could have done something about it. She’s done too much for me and our family to be repaid like that. God willing, I will make great progress with that goal this year.

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Thank GOD for another day of freedom!



Day 27 - 11th June 2024
Rank: Servant


Lord, I thank you for the desire to be free.


Daily Activities:

:white_check_mark: Prayers
:white_check_mark: Time Alone with GOD
:white_check_mark: Listened to Qur’an Recitation
:white_check_mark: Studying the Qur’an
:white_check_mark: Kept Eyes Pure
:white_check_mark: Early Riser - Up by 4 AM
:white_check_mark: Plan for the Day
:white_check_mark: Listened to Motivational Content
:white_check_mark: Listened to NoPMO Motivational Content
:white_check_mark: Watched Educational Videos
:white_check_mark: PMO Recovery Work
:white_check_mark: Dose of LSD (Laughter, Singing and Dancing)
:white_check_mark: Intermittent Fasting (23 hours)
:white_check_mark: Daily Walking (21.3 km)
:white_check_mark: 100 Pushups, Sit-Ups and Squats
:white_check_mark: Exercised at the Gym
:white_check_mark: Cold Shower
:white_check_mark: Taking Vitamins and Supplements
:white_check_mark: Listened to Uplifting Music
:white_check_mark: Mindful Breathing
:white_check_mark: Relaxation
:white_check_mark: Conversations with Loved Ones
:white_check_mark: Household Errands
:white_check_mark: Looking after my Family
:white_check_mark: Conversation with a NoPMO Brother
:white_check_mark: Supported a Friend
:white_check_mark: Shift at Work (8AM - 4PM)
:white_check_mark: Worked on Online Business
:white_check_mark: Journaling
:white_check_mark: Gratitude
:white_check_mark: Reflection
:white_check_mark: Edited and Uploaded Video


Adverse Events:

Involuntary Ejaculations: 1


Prime Objective:
Live free and clean

Entry:

The illusion of PMO being good and enjoyable has been shattered, Forerunner.

You are clearly seeing just how destructive and evil the ■■■■ industry is. You learned that one of the actresses you watched hundreds of times was molested at a very young age, and many others have similar experiences. You will never watch her videos again. When people are hurt and damaged, their view of the world is
skewed and they do strange things to cope with what happened to them.

But there is still a suggestion from Backrunner to just stick with the drawn stuff. That if it’s artistic, no one has been harmed, so that’s okay. But you know better than that. It harms you. It harms your family and your friends. It disconnects you from your Lord, leads you back to the pit of despair once more, where your dreams go to die. PMO in all forms will always be the worse things you can do.

Backrunner may talk about how enjoyable it is, how there are new releases and ■■■■ games you never finished playing. But those who have never seen such content are far better off. You aren’t missing out on anything good that will lead to greater happiness or fulfillment.

When Backrunner comes back with those suggestions, remember the truth of that experience. Being on those ■■■■ game sites, anxiously waiting for updates, suffering through buggy games to seek the content you wanted to see, in a community of people becoming more and more degenerate with each passing day. The hypocrisy of being on there while claiming you want to quit, with usernames like OneFinalTime and NoFapForever, even iBackrunner at one point. The last relapse you had was to that stuff, and it wasn’t fun.

Keep going Forerunner, you’re doing great.



Always thank GOD for everything.


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You walked for 21.3 kms, did 100 pushups, 100 situps and 100 squats. And on top of that you exercised at the gym as well!? Am I missing something or are you an absolute beast brother!? :muscle:t2:

That is so true. Almost every woman working in the so called “industry” has been betrayed by the world. Some were betrayed by the men they put trust in. Others were psyoped to believe that being naked on the internet is some sort of liberation.

They hurt us by creating content and we hurt them by continuing to consume their content and encouraging bad behaviour. We must break the cycle.

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Thank GOD for another day of freedom!



Day 28 - 12th June 2024
Rank: Servant


Lord, I thank you for the gift of the present moment.


Daily Activities:

:white_check_mark: Prayers
:white_check_mark: Time Alone with GOD
:white_check_mark: Listened to Qur’an Recitation
:white_check_mark: Studying the Qur’an
:white_check_mark: Kept Eyes Pure
:white_check_mark: Early Riser - Up by 6 AM
:white_check_mark: Plan for the Day
:white_check_mark: Listened to Motivational Content
:white_check_mark: Listened to NoPMO Motivational Content
:white_check_mark: PMO Recovery Work
:white_check_mark: Dose of LSD (Laughter, Singing and Dancing)
:white_check_mark: Islamic Fasting (27 hours)
:white_check_mark: Dental Hygiene
:white_check_mark: Daily Walking (28.4 km)
:white_check_mark: 100 Pushups, Sit-Ups and Squats
:white_check_mark: Cold Shower
:white_check_mark: Taking Vitamins and Supplements
:white_check_mark: Listened to Uplifting Music
:white_check_mark: Weigh-In for Weight Loss (-0.3 kg)
:white_check_mark: Relaxation
:white_check_mark: Conversations with Loved Ones
:white_check_mark: Household Errands
:white_check_mark: Looking after my Family
:white_check_mark: Spent Time with Family
:white_check_mark: Conversation with a NoPMO Brother
:white_check_mark: Supported a Friend
:white_check_mark: Shift at Work (8AM - 4PM)
:white_check_mark: Worked on Online Business
:white_check_mark: Journaling
:white_check_mark: Gratitude
:white_check_mark: Reflection
:white_check_mark: Recorded Video
:white_check_mark: Edited and Uploaded Video


Prime Objective:
Live free and clean

Entry:
Backrunner has been defeated, Forerunner.

You can feel him losing the will to fight you. Keeping your eyes single is removing his strength. When we aren’t sexualising and objectifying people anymore, he has no fuel to spark the desire in you.

He came to you in a pathetic last-ditch attempt today. He sighed that you can have your fun and complete your 1000 day challenge, but he laughed and said someone as addicted as you have been will surely relapse afterwards, and then you’ll have years worth of content to catch up on. You’ll never break free after that.

God absolutely forbid, Forerunner. Can you see just how broken Backrunner’s spirit is? He has lost hope of defeating you for nearly THREE YEARS! Your resolve is so strong that he doesn’t see any openings in your defences right now.

Constant vigilance, Forerunner. Never stop seeking God’s Help, and follow along the way He has guided you to. Don’t let your guard down for a millisecond. Backrunner wil smell blood and attack with fierce rage. He wants to spend months and months indulging in those ■■■■ games and comics and animes, throw away all the productivity and go back to live in the pit. And once there, he would have you go right back to the same ■■■■ videos you’ve sworn off of actors and actresses who have been abused and molested. Continuing the horrible cycle of hurt people hurting people. That sounds like the most delightful thing in the world to him. Shirk all responsibilities and live in pleasure and hedonism, escalate to more and more depravity.

His plan will never come to fruition, Lord willing.

1000 days is a long time brother. It’s 4x your highest streak. By God’s Grace, so much can have changed for you in that time. A deeper connection with GOD, living firmly in your values, married, strong ties to loved ones, huge advances in career, education and hobbies - a far happier and fulfilling life. Be not deceived, a life far greater than anything Backrunner could hope to offer. Even the pursuit of it before its attainment makes you smile, imagine actually living it. 3 years will pass whether you are clean or not, so do what you know to be right. Be clean today so you will be clean hereafter.

You’re on the right path, Forerunner. Keep going.



Always thank GOD for everything.


Thanks bro :pray: :muscle: I want to lose 6kg within the next month :triumph: That will sit me comfortably at a healthy weight.

So true brother. The cycle must be broken :100:

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Thank GOD for another day of freedom!



Day 29 - 13th June 2024
Rank: Servant


Lord, I thank you for progress, and the hope I have in You that it will continue.


Daily Activities:

:white_check_mark: Prayers
:white_check_mark: Time Alone with GOD
:white_check_mark: Listened to Qur’an Recitation
:white_check_mark: Studying the Qur’an
:white_check_mark: Kept Eyes Pure
:white_check_mark: Early Riser - Up by 5 AM
:white_check_mark: Plan for the Day
:white_check_mark: Listened to Motivational Content
:white_check_mark: Listened to NoPMO Motivational Content
:white_check_mark: Watched Educational Videos
:white_check_mark: PMO Recovery Work
:white_check_mark: Dose of LSD (Laughter, Singing and Dancing)
:white_check_mark: Intermittent Fasting (19 hours)
:white_check_mark: Daily Walking (26.6 km)
:white_check_mark: Looking after My Health
:white_check_mark: 100 Pushups, Sit-Ups and Squats
:white_check_mark: Cold Shower
:white_check_mark: Taking Vitamins and Supplements
:white_check_mark: Listened to Uplifting Music
:white_check_mark: Relaxation
:white_check_mark: Conversations with Loved Ones
:white_check_mark: Household Errands
:white_check_mark: Looking after my Family
:white_check_mark: Spent Time with Family
:white_check_mark: Conversation with a NoPMO Brother
:white_check_mark: Check-in with Accountability Partner
:white_check_mark: Supported a Friend
:white_check_mark: Shift at Work (8AM - 4PM)
:white_check_mark: Worked on Online Business
:white_check_mark: Journaling
:white_check_mark: Gratitude
:white_check_mark: Reflection
:white_check_mark: Recorded Video
:white_check_mark: Edited and Uploaded Video


Adverse Events:

Sexual Dreams: 1


Prime Objective:
Live free and clean

Entry:
What a journey it has been, Forerunner. Five years ago today, you began your highest streak of 252 days.

When you relapsed after that streak, you let Backrunner run your life. It has been the most addicted period of your life. And he dragged your name through the mud. You were disconnected from GOD, you became obese, you fell into debt again, you lost dear friends due to isolation and neglect, you were unemployed and binging your life away on PMO, junk food, video games and TV shows. Backrunner was having an absolutely amazing time, he never wanted it to end. But you know the truth. It was a miserable existence, watching yourself kill your dreams every day.

Thank GOD, we are seeing things clearly now. Life is so much better on this side, and it hasn’t even been a month of freedom yet. When Backrunner comes with a suggestion to peek, remember the truth. We have seen the life of a PMOer, it is no life at all. This is the way.

Stay strong, Forerunner. This time you will beat your highest streak with GOD’s Help.



Always thank GOD for everything.


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It’s showing the deep addiction I detected in you forerunner, the fact that you have thoughts of coming back after 1000 days to binge. It’s madness but it is you, that’s happening when you are you, you relapse. Please step back and realise that you are in God grace and you are protected, you hitting your chest and declare when you are you and God might lift the grace from you and you’ll have to proove it then. God forbid that. That is what backrunner wants, protection to be lifted and go one on one with him, then how many days you’ll resist the devil grind. On that big streak 250 you been dropped because you became cocky and thought you carried yourself that far. Think about it

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Thank GOD for another day of freedom!



Day 30 - 14th June 2024
Rank: Villager


Lord, I thank you for self-awareness.


Daily Activities:

:white_check_mark: Prayers
:white_check_mark: Time Alone with GOD
:white_check_mark: Listened to Qur’an Recitation
:white_check_mark: Studying the Qur’an
:white_check_mark: Kept Eyes Pure
:white_check_mark: Early Riser - Up by 6 AM
:white_check_mark: Plan for the Day
:white_check_mark: Listened to Motivational Content
:white_check_mark: Listened to NoPMO Motivational Content
:white_check_mark: PMO Recovery Work
:white_check_mark: Dose of LSD (Laughter, Singing and Dancing)
:white_check_mark: Intermittent Fasting (23 hours)
:white_check_mark: Daily Walking (31 km)
:white_check_mark: Exercised at the Gym
:white_check_mark: Taking Vitamins and Supplements
:white_check_mark: Listened to Uplifting Music
:white_check_mark: Relaxation
:white_check_mark: Conversations with Loved Ones
:white_check_mark: Check-in with Accountability Partner
:white_check_mark: Household Errands
:white_check_mark: Looking after my Family
:white_check_mark: Conversation with a NoPMO Brother
:white_check_mark: Supported a Friend
:white_check_mark: Shift at Work (8AM - 4PM)
:white_check_mark: Journaling
:white_check_mark: Gratitude
:white_check_mark: Reflection
:white_check_mark: Edited and Uploaded Video


Adverse Events:

Involuntary Ejaculations: 1
Sexual Dreams: 1


Prime Objective:
Live free and clean

Entry:
A month clean with God’s Help, Forerunner.

Protect your intentions. Go beyond the actions you’re about to take and ask yourself, where is this leading me? Why do I want to do this right now? We’ve seen many times in the past that you’d go on YouTube seeking to be entertained, but the underlying desire was to find something arousing. We’re taking full responsibility. No relapse is an accident.

Sure, you may feel that ‘just a little won’t hurt’ and think you’ll find some pleasure in it. But remember how miserable things were after the last relapse. Remember how good you feel now and God’s blessings upon you. Don’t trade them for such a worthless activity.



Always thank GOD for everything.


@Mazerunner Thanks for the caution.

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This diary is a book to read.

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Thank GOD for another day of freedom!



Day 31 - 15th June 2024
Rank: Villager


Lord, I thank you for the growth in the last month.


Daily Activities:

:white_check_mark: Prayers
:white_check_mark: Time Alone with GOD
:white_check_mark: Listened to Qur’an Recitation
:white_check_mark: Studying the Qur’an
:white_check_mark: Kept Eyes Pure
:white_check_mark: Listened to Motivational Content
:white_check_mark: Listened to NoPMO Motivational Content
:white_check_mark: Watched Educational Videos
:white_check_mark: PMO Recovery Work
:white_check_mark: Dose of LSD (Laughter, Singing and Dancing)
:white_check_mark: Intermittent Fasting (17 hours)
:white_check_mark: Daily Walking (25.3 km)
:white_check_mark: Cold Shower
:white_check_mark: Taking Vitamins and Supplements
:white_check_mark: Listened to Uplifting Music
:white_check_mark: Mindful Breathing
:white_check_mark: Relaxation
:white_check_mark: Conversations with Loved Ones
:white_check_mark: Household Errands
:white_check_mark: Conversation with a NoPMO Brother
:white_check_mark: Phone Call with Accountability Partner
:white_check_mark: Supported a Friend
:white_check_mark: Journaling
:white_check_mark: Gratitude
:white_check_mark: Reflection
:white_check_mark: Recorded Video
:white_check_mark: Edited and Uploaded Video

:crossed_swords: Urges Defeated: 2


Adverse Events:

Involuntary Ejaculations: 1
Sexual Dreams: 1


Prime Objective:
Live free and clean

Backrunner Speaks:
I’m STARVING bro. I need to taste something. It’s been a month and you’re not even letting me have a 2 second look at a woman. I am a man, I have NEEDS. I love women bro. I LOVE ■■■■. You can’t keep doing this to me.

You keep bouncing back from these relapses; you haven’t even checked out that website in months. That was the go-to site man! We’ve been going there for a decade, if not longer. You gotta see the updates! And the ■■■■ games, bro, I NEED to complete them. To fully enjoy them. I’ve been waiting years for that one game to get new updates, and NOW you decide to get serious?!

Bro, you can’t tell me that you don’t want to watch that Onlyfans girl! I love that girl :heart_eyes::drooling_face::hot_face:. The faces she makes Hyunngggh! She definitely has loads of new content. And the companies have surely put out loads of new videos too. I refuse to stand for this man, I gotta see them.

You can always start again after that. Things are going well, right? Why can’t they go well later, too? Doesn’t your Lord forgive sins? Let’s take a break, have some fun and repent afterwards.

Forerunner Responds:

Patience, brother. You are going to come to know that this is the best path for us.

You have been quiet for a while. We have been busy working hard towards our goals and improving our lives. And deep down, you were happy with that arrangement too. You think you want to indulge and ‘enjoy’ yourself, but if that’s the case, then you should have been more upset.

Lust is a beast that grows more ravenous the more you feed it. You have actually been satisfied all this time, since we haven’t been engaging in lust. But there’s still this issue of free time, and the temptation to abuse it. Alone time is for building yourself, not destroying yourself. And let’s be honest, the plans you think you want to get up to, you’re not looking for just a weekend off. No, you would never be full until we stop permanently. You are not missing out on anything besides more frustration. Constantly seeking pleasure and never quite finding it. This is the way.

Yes, God forgives sin. But we don’t have any right to knowingly sin in anticipation of being forgiven. You can’t make a mockery of His Mercy.

In reality, you’re frustrated with the lower level of productivity this weekend. We woke up late, we took another nap in the afternoon, we didn’t make a plan for the day. Bro, not every day will be 10/10 productivity. We were exhausted yesterday. Not being fully productive isn’t an excuse to throw away all the progress we’ve made in the last month and revert back to PMO. That will never be the answer.

Okay, so we haven’t completed any deep work today. Tomorrow is a new day. Lord willing, we’ll attend our Quranic lecture on Zoom, work on that new video editing course and read some more of The Freedom Model. You’ll be far happier to be back in a productive rhythm.



Always thank GOD for everything.


@Binocular :slightly_smiling_face: :open_book:

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Day 32 - 16th June 2024
Rank: Villager


Lord, I thank you for family and friends who love and support me.


Daily Activities:

:white_check_mark: Prayers
:white_check_mark: Time Alone with GOD
:white_check_mark: Listened to Qur’an Recitation
:white_check_mark: Studying the Qur’an
:white_check_mark: Early Riser - Up by 5 AM
:white_check_mark: Listened to Motivational Content
:white_check_mark: Listened to NoPMO Motivational Content
:white_check_mark: Watched Educational Videos
:white_check_mark: PMO Recovery Work
:white_check_mark: Reading NoPMO Book “The Freedom Model” and Taking Notes
:white_check_mark: Dose of LSD (Laughter, Singing and Dancing)
:white_check_mark: Intermittent Fasting (21 hours)
:white_check_mark: Dental Hygiene
:white_check_mark: Daily Walking (21.8 km)
:white_check_mark: Cold Shower
:white_check_mark: Taking Vitamins and Supplements
:white_check_mark: Listened to Uplifting Music
:white_check_mark: Mindful Breathing
:white_check_mark: Relaxation
:white_check_mark: Conversations with Loved Ones
:white_check_mark: Household Errands
:white_check_mark: Spent Time with Family
:white_check_mark: Conversation with a NoPMO Brother
:white_check_mark: Phone Call with Accountability Partner
:white_check_mark: Supported a Friend
:white_check_mark: Journaling
:white_check_mark: Gratitude
:white_check_mark: Reflection
:white_check_mark: Recorded Video
:white_check_mark: Edited and Uploaded Video

:crossed_swords: Urges Defeated: 2


Adverse Events:

Involuntary Ejaculations: 1
Sexual Dreams: 1


Prime Objective:
Live free and clean

Backrunner Speaks:
Come on man. This isn’t fun. I want to enjoy myself. Can’t we just look at something on YouTube or TikTok? We don’t have to go back to the full-blown hardcore stuff, I know that’s off-limits.

Just check out the site man. You can even turn images and JavaScript off, l just want to read the text and see what’s new. This curiosity will kill me. I NEED to know man.

Just watch something and turn it off before the nudity. You can’t seriously believe you will never look at anything again bro, that’s ridiculous. Just learn not to go overboard. And if you do, no big deal, we don’t have to be so honest and tell everyone. We used to live in secrecy, we can go back to that.

Forerunner Responds:
You don’t need to be afraid, brother. I know you’re anxious that we’ve always gone back to PMO in the past, and you don’t believe that we can stop. But all those times in the past were CHOICES. And we have free will, so we can make different, better choices. There isn’t anything compelling us to go backwards.

Yes, I truly do believe that I will never look at anything again. With God’s Help, I’m doing it right now, you’re witnessing that every day. And we’re having real fun on this side. I’m glad to be living with honesty and integrity. There’s no such thing as getting a little buzz from YouTube or Instagram. If you’re looking at material designed to arouse or which you know will spark desire in you, that is no small thing, it is tremendous.

This journey isn’t like waiting until all episodes of a show you want to watch have dropped before binge watching it. Stop worrying about new releases on those pornographic sites. Oftentimes they are disappointing anyway. And none of them are worth trading our freedom for.

I know you’re unhappy with the level of productivity this weekend. Bro, this weekend was many times better than the ones we would have as PMOers. Be grateful for that. You won’t be 100% everyday. And don’t fall into the trap of thinking that we must be hyperproductive or else we’re in danger of relapsing. Nothing ever causes a relapse, it is always a choice. We can veg out all day and do absolutely nothing on our to-do list and still be clean if we choose to be. Relax, enjoy some good music and call a loved one. You’ll feel genuinely better after that.



Always thank GOD for everything.


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Day 33 - 17th June 2024
Rank: Villager


Lord, I thank you for good friends.


Daily Activities:

:white_check_mark: Prayers
:white_check_mark: Time Alone with GOD
:white_check_mark: Listened to Qur’an Recitation
:white_check_mark: Studying the Qur’an
:white_check_mark: Plan for the Day
:white_check_mark: Listened to Motivational Content
:white_check_mark: Listened to NoPMO Motivational Content
:white_check_mark: Watched Educational Videos
:white_check_mark: PMO Recovery Work
:white_check_mark: Reading NoPMO Book “The Freedom Model” and Taking Notes
:white_check_mark: Intermittent Fasting (33 hours)
:white_check_mark: Daily Walking (33.5 km)
:white_check_mark: Looking after My Health
:white_check_mark: Taking Vitamins and Supplements
:white_check_mark: Relaxation
:white_check_mark: Conversations with Loved Ones
:white_check_mark: Met Up with Friends
:white_check_mark: Household Errands
:white_check_mark: Looking after my Family
:white_check_mark: Conversation with a NoPMO Brother
:white_check_mark: Check-in with Accountability Partner
:white_check_mark: Supported a Friend
:white_check_mark: Shift at Work (8AM - 4PM)
:white_check_mark: Worked on Online Business
:white_check_mark: Learning Video Editing Course
:white_check_mark: Gratitude
:white_check_mark: Reflection
:white_check_mark: Recorded Video
:white_check_mark: Edited and Uploaded Video


Prime Objective:
Live free and clean

Entry:
The desire for PMO is dying, Forerunner.

You don’t even want to look at that stuff anymore. You aren’t spending the day thinking about it. You’re no longer on the fence, hoping you could go back for just one more time, one more peek, one last session. You’re committed to freedom.

But make sure you continue to do what’s working. Set no unclean thing before your eyes. Do not sexualise and objectify people. Purify your gaze. Seek God’s protection. You always feel better when maintaining purity.



Always thank GOD for everything.


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Day 34 - 18th June 2024
Rank: Villager


Lord, I thank you for inspiring me to grow and improve.


Daily Activities:

:white_check_mark: Prayers
:white_check_mark: Time Alone with GOD
:white_check_mark: Listened to Qur’an Recitation
:white_check_mark: Studying the Qur’an
:white_check_mark: Kept Eyes Pure
:white_check_mark: Listened to Motivational Content
:white_check_mark: Listened to NoPMO Motivational Content
:white_check_mark: PMO Recovery Work
:white_check_mark: Dose of LSD (Laughter, Singing and Dancing)
:white_check_mark: Intermittent Fasting (24 hours)
:white_check_mark: Daily Walking (21.8 km)
:white_check_mark: Exercised at the Gym
:white_check_mark: Cold Shower
:white_check_mark: Taking Vitamins and Supplements
:white_check_mark: Listened to Uplifting Music
:white_check_mark: Mindful Breathing
:white_check_mark: Relaxation
:white_check_mark: Conversations with Loved Ones
:white_check_mark: Household Errands
:white_check_mark: Looking after my Family
:white_check_mark: Conversation with a NoPMO Brother
:white_check_mark: Supported a Friend
:white_check_mark: Shift at Work (8AM - 4PM)
:white_check_mark: Journaling
:white_check_mark: Gratitude
:white_check_mark: Reflection
:white_check_mark: Recorded Video
:white_check_mark: Edited and Uploaded Video


Prime Objective:
Live free and clean

Entry:
We recognise that the main moments of temptation are during idle times, Forerunner.

There is nothing new about that; many people on this journey talk about how being busy helped them. But we won’t be busy all the time. Some days, things won’t go to plan, or maybe you just won’t have the energy. But that will never be an excuse to let our guard down.

Stay on task. Keep doing what you’re doing. On the weekend, make sure you go through your reminders and reinforce the correct mindset. Make a plan of action to make the best use of the time.



Always thank GOD for everything.


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Day 35 - 19th June 2024
Rank: Villager


Lord, I thank you for the way of escape.


Daily Activities:

:white_check_mark: Prayers
:white_check_mark: Time Alone with GOD
:white_check_mark: Listened to Qur’an Recitation
:white_check_mark: Studying the Qur’an
:white_check_mark: Kept Eyes Pure
:white_check_mark: Early Riser - Up by 5 AM
:white_check_mark: Listened to Motivational Content
:white_check_mark: Listened to NoPMO Motivational Content
:white_check_mark: Watched Educational Videos
:white_check_mark: PMO Recovery Work
:white_check_mark: Dose of LSD (Laughter, Singing and Dancing)
:white_check_mark: Intermittent Fasting (18 hours)
:white_check_mark: Daily Walking (21.2 km)
:white_check_mark: Exercised at the Gym
:white_check_mark: Cold Shower
:white_check_mark: Listened to Uplifting Music
:white_check_mark: Relaxation
:white_check_mark: Conversations with Loved Ones
:white_check_mark: Household Errands
:white_check_mark: Looking after my Family
:white_check_mark: Conversation with a NoPMO Brother
:white_check_mark: Check-in with Accountability Partner
:white_check_mark: Met Up with Friends
:white_check_mark: Shift at Work (8AM - 4PM)
:white_check_mark: Worked on Online Business
:white_check_mark: Worked on YouTube Channel
:white_check_mark: Journaling
:white_check_mark: Gratitude
:white_check_mark: Reflection
:white_check_mark: Recorded Video
:white_check_mark: Edited and Uploaded Video


Prime Objective:
Live free and clean

Critical Moment:
I misspelt a search term on Google, and it brought up a bunch of ■■■■ sites.

Backrunner’s Lies:
You’re triggered now; you have to check out that site.
It’s been a while. You’re missing out. These thoughts won’t leave you now; you will fail eventually.
You can’t tell me that you don’t want to view that scene.

How I want to think next time:
There is absolutely nothing that ‘triggers’ a relapse. I have free will. I can choose not to give into lust. I am happy to be free. I am grateful to be living with integrity. I love feeling comfortable in my own skin again. I hate feeling like I’m taking advantage of broken souls. I despise restarting my streak again and again. I am not missing out on anything but more pain.



Always thank GOD for everything.


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It sounds more stupid when we get a big streak then relapse for the most stupid reason known to mankind.

Twice I have let my 85+ days streak go in drain in recent months. Let’s be more confident this time.

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