Day 1: 23rd May 2020.
@aapoorv75 @neo_150 Thanks for the encouragement brothers 
My sharing code is eoivgi.
Thank GOD for the journey!
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Letās do this again bro!
Youāre a legend! 
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Day 1: 23rd May 2020.
@anon67854825 GOD bless you brother 
I havenāt felt like much of a legend recently, itās time to stand up again.
I watched one of my old YouTube videos today, it was like looking at a different person. And yet from where I stand today, I can already see where he was going wrong. With hindsight I could see his relapse coming. The lapse in discipline. He had stopped regularly reminding himself how much he wanted to continue being free. The slow return to the life I had before - junk food, wasting my time unproductively, isolating.
This is a daily battle between the self who wants to watch 10 hours of Netflix, play video games, eat tubs of ice cream and cakes and binge on PMO, and the self who wants to change his world and the world around him for the better. Every action is a vote for who gets to win that day.
I still have a lot of work to do, but today Iām voting for the right candidate.
Thank GOD for the journey!
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Hey man,
Why donāt you continue writing?
Atleast once a week
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He is doing good. He is on 22 days streakā¦ today.
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Day 1: 1st July 2020
Thank you @anon98741803 @HappySoul @Sahas
I felt I wasnāt in the right place to post anything.
There is so much positive change happening on other peopleās diaries now, itās an amazing thing to see. People taking charge of their lives and moving forward. I pray everyone achieves success and freedom. For myself, I felt trapped by failures again and again, and I couldnāt bring myself to write about that.
But Iām done feeling sorry for myself. With GODās Help, I will turn my life around and become stronger than Iāve ever been. I will raise my mindset to a new level, since the problems Iāve created for myself in the past cannot be resolved by the same level of thinking that produced them.
I chose this name because it means the person who is leading the crowd of people who are the very best. Itās a goal to work towards in all areas of life - making sure that youāre giving your absolute best and leaving nothing behind.
Itās time to live up to the name Forerunner.
Thank GOD for the journey!
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Welcome back Joshua!
Maybe you can try Zeneās Method
Maybe not 100%
But, donāt only depend on your mind
Make system!
Not only doing something, but also leave something
I think leave something is more powerful than doing something and itās work for me, if itās work for me, maybe itās work for you
So, good luck ex-legendā¦
God bless you
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Congrats for 30 days bro! Keep rising!
And when will you start doing your daily check-ins againā¦? Iām missing your amazing, thought-provoking postsš
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@Martial_Beast Thanks bro.
I am tired of coming here and posting the same things again and again, thatās why I havenāt posted anything.
@Andi Thanks for your advice bro. Zeneās method is EXTREME! 
I can see why you said not 100% of it. But I believe it will be helpful. I want to do it for the month of August. I can post my progress here, that is something new.
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Brotherā¦You can do it ā¦Congratulation for 30daysā¦
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We do not mind if you post the same thing a hundred times as long as you are improving and committed to your journey.
I wish you all the best bro
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Day 1: 1st July 2020
@Aragorn Thanks brother, good to see you here again. Youāve been missed.
Thank GOD, Iāve been clean for 50 days again. Itās been a bumpy ride getting back here again, but each U-turn and dead end road was 100% on me. Iām understanding the mindset required to be free even better than I did before.
Thank GOD for the journey!
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Glad to see that you are back sirā¦ 
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Welcome back @Forerunner
I am one of your diary readers.
You must write something regularly.
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Very well said. We hope you are back stronger than ever.
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Day 1: 8th October 2020
Rank: Prisoner 
Itās time for me to be honest with myself. Iām an addict.
Iām addicted to avoiding pain. Iām addicted to avoiding responsibility or taking charge of my life and my success.
Iām very impatient. I donāt want to wait or spend energy to make good things happen, and I donāt like feeling uncomfortable at all. I crave immediate gratification. Anything I can do to escape the pain of being myself and in my head with these dark thoughts. Whether it be video games, junk food, YouTube, scrolling through Instagram, binge-watching Netflix, and OF COURSE PMO, it is the same story. I donāt love myself, I donāt even like myself. How can I when I spend my time doing things I donāt respect myself for?
But worse of all, Iām addicted to hope. Iām still optimistic that one day, someday in the future, things will be better. Somehow, Iāll overcome this darkness and things will be great. I get back on a streak, I tell myself that things are different, theyāll surely change this time around. But I just want it to happen magically. I want to wake up tomorrow and feel like the person whoās capable of making that change. I donāt want to do the work to make it happen.
Nothing will change unless I change. Itās up to me. I canāt push the blame or responsibility onto anyone else.
I have been so blessed. There are so many good things in my life, and I take GODās blessings for granted every day. I have the love and support of family members and friends who are aware of my struggles on this journey and still love me, even when I isolate from them and mistreat them. I have enough savings to live comfortably for a few good months during this period where Iām unemployed, but Iāve been abusing my finances and buying ice cream, cakes and chocolate to eat like an 8-year-old boy. I have skills and talents and abilities that are lying dormant and unused.
If I donāt make real changes and heal the damage and pain within, it doesnāt matter what my counter is showing, I will always go back to square one.
Today, I chose to live above the addiction. I am in pain right now, but I am embracing it. This pain is temporary, and as I continue to grow and improve through positive activities, it will be replaced by real pleasure, happiness and fulfillment. Thank GOD for that.
Time to break these chains for good.
Prayers
Fasting
Watched NoPMO Motivational Video
Cold Shower
13.95km Walk
Listened to Scripture
Mindful Breathing
Worked on eBay Business
PMO Recovery Work
Philosophy Course
Looked at Life Plan
Conversation with Loved Ones
Visualisation
Journal Entry
Recorded Video
Rewire Companion Entry
Always thank GOD for everything.
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Hang in there brother. Just keep trying. One of my most favorite quotes is that the most successful people in this world are the biggest failures. Michael Jordan said that.
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They just keep trying until success is had. Its a journey. Its not easy. But you can do it. Wont be a straight line either.
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Day 2: 9th October 2020
Rank: Prisoner 
@PatrickJ Thanks for your support and encouragement, Patrick.
Today wasā¦today was difficult, but it was a blessing.
So much pain and sorrow, crying and tears, but Iām smiling now as I write this post this evening. The pieces are coming together.
Iāll have more to say tomorrow, GOD willing. For now, Iāll post what my friend shared with me after I told her Iād relapsed again.
Detachment - Let go of ideas/feelings/anchors that cause you to doubt. Things will not happen the way you want or how you expect them to. You cannot be attached to an idea so strongly. There are forces working for and against you at all times. Nothing happens as we plan it.
Gratitude - Things are moving. Not in the way you thought or expected, but you still have things others would pray for. Donāt compare your circumstances to anything or anyone else, even your past self. Have gratitude for what you have right NOW. We always have the choice in every moment to see the positive aspects of our situation.
Progression - You are still moving forward. Recognise that your path isnāt linear. Step back, be grateful. Donāt focus on what you donāt have, what you havenāt achieved. Think about what you do have, what you have learned, who you have positively influenced and impacted along the way. Donāt focus on how long it takes you to get to your destination, be grateful for every step of the journey.
When you feel those dark thoughts come back, think of 3 things youāre grateful for in the present moment which will allow you to balance yourself and see clearly again. Itās your choice how you respond to every situation.
Donāt be afraid of the past repeating itself, be afraid of doing the same things in the present which will produce a future that matches your past. If youāre stuck doing the same habits that held you back before, stop immediately. Youāre creating the same result. The present moment is the most precious time in your existence. Every thing you do right now, matters.
Prayers
Fasting
Prepared Healthy Meal
Watched NoPMO Motivational Video
Cold Shower
10km Walk
Listened to Scripture
Mindful Breathing
Worked on eBay Business
PMO Recovery Work
Philosophy Course
Looked at Life Plan
Conversation with Loved Ones
Visualisation
Journal Entry
Recorded Video
Rewire Companion Entry
Always thank GOD for everything.
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