[27M] WR's Journal: Done relapsing

After countless relapses throughout the last couple of years (I’ve had a max streak of just 14 days), I hereby declare that I’m done relapsing.
Day 1 of forever begins right now. For too long I have engaged in ruining my life. I had a little taste of how much more life can be in that 14 day streak and I hereby declare that that’s how I want to be for the rest of my life. I CAN AND I WILL.

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Welcome to this community where we unleash the inner beast and achieve greatness together.

Once this decision is made activate beast mode. Don’t look back. Everyday grow so much that you reach a state where you cannot even identify yourself with the guy that you were before. Follow your purpose. Embrace pain and LIVE YOUR LIFE BROTHER. You can do this.

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It’s literally cosmic, man. Develop ultimate discipline and witness the full spectacle.

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Day 1:
Kept myself engrossed in my work. Did not study at all for the exam I’m prepping for.
Achievement: Had a couple of minor urges which were relatively easy to ignore.
To improve: Need to work on productive usage of my time.

Thanks for the encouragement brother. It’s actually the first time I had the courage to write about it on a public forum. Not only does interacting with a supportive community helps, but also the added sense of accountability to the community is a great motivation to keep going.

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Thanks. I intend to do exactly that. :slight_smile:

Day 2: Not a great day in terms of productivity but no relapses despite a couple of urges. Feeling a little bit more confident about the next 24 hours. :slight_smile:

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Day 3: Not a bad day overall. No real urges. Productivity at ~50% of target which isn’t bad for a start.
Lesson of the day: Keep yourself busy to keep the urges at bay.

@WilliamRock incorporate meditation, exercise etc into routine bro. Without that I believe it would be very hard to conquer this addiction. Keep going back. Never look back. Past is past and its over. What you now is your life.

Thanks for reminding me. I used to practice mediation a while ago but kind of just forgot about it. While I anyway intend to start working out again from tomorrow onwards, I will be sure to include mediation in my rest days. :+1:

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Day 4: No strong urges. However, I had an interesting but important realization today.

I came across a provocative image that usually would have initiated an urge, which would have resulted in a relapse. Instead of just scrolling past hastily, I stayed at the image and had a conversation with myself. In this conversation I told myself that instead of looking at such content as material to fap to, I should look at it as just an animate image of a stranger. It’s okay to look at such content with eyes full of appreciation of art (just like any other image) but not with eyes full of lust because at the end of the day, fapping to inanimate images of a human being can never be a substitute for consensual sex with another human being. I explained to myself that there will always be pornography or provocative content around me and just because I come across new content doesn’t mean that I ‘have to’ succumb to urges.

Lesson of the day: Try having this conversation with yourself the next time you feel an urge kicking in. Make yourself understand that pornography doesn’t deserve to control your body, only you do. Inanimate pornography doesn’t deserve your sexual energy, only your partner does.

Productivity wasn’t too high today (didn’t spend enough time studying for the test I’m prepping for) but I don’t feel too bad about it because I’m gaining my confidence back. I will continue to take this journey on one day at a time. Baby steps :slight_smile:

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Day 5: A little late in writing an entry today but still going strong. Had a busy work day. Don’t remember getting any urges today.
No lesson of the day but one thing to improve upon tomorrow is sticking to my daily schedule which somewhat went for a toss today (Didn’t study and couldn’t find time to work out). :upside_down_face:

Day 6 completed. No relapses. No strong urges despite stumbling across a couple of provocative images.

Hits:
Wake up at 5 :white_check_mark:
Studies :ballot_box_with_check: (Not as much as I should have)
Meditation :white_check_mark:
Productivity at work :ballot_box_with_check: (higher than before but not good enough)

Misses:
No workout :x:
No cooking :x: (Ordered in instead)

Today’s lesson: It’s all in the mind. As long as you’re able to have the positive mindset, you’ll have positive results.

How old are you and what’s your current streak?

I like that one. Positive mindset brings happiness. Sharing smile is receiving smiles back. No workout, but still you had good day. Just workout tomorrow. I’m proud of you :wink:

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I’m 27 years old with just a 7 day streak mate.

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Thanks for the words of encouragement brother :slight_smile:

Day 7 completed. No major urges and I can already feel a slight improvement in my confidence and energy levels.

Hits:
Wake up at 5 :white_check_mark:
Cook :ballot_box_with_check: (Not green tick because I didn’t cook but did a huge pile of dishes so better than yesterday :smiley:)
Meditation :white_check_mark:
Workout :white_check_mark:
Productivity at work :white_check_mark: (While I need to reduce distractions (pomodoro ftw), the time I spent focusing on work was super productive and I got a lot done in less time)

Misses:
Studies :x: (Negligible)

Today’s lesson: I’m starting to realize the benefits of nofap are not just biological but also psychological. The confidence boost you get is not just a function of biology but also because when you finally take this challenge seriously, it generates an attitude of, “If I can do this, there’s nothing I can not do.”

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I am 29 years old with 24 days streak. This is my third highest streak in 6 years

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That’s great brother. Keep going one day at a time and I’m sure we’ll both achieve greatness.

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