[27 M] My new journey

Hi guys,

I’m addicted to porn and it’s ruining my life.

I started looking at porn when I was 12 or 13 and haven’t gone more than a few days without doing it since. I started considering it a problem a few years ago but every time I’ve tried to quit I’ve failed. I’ve tried journaling, tracking, blocking websites, locking devices away, etc, and nothing has worked. To be honest my confidence in succeeding is low but I know I really need to get control over this awful compulsion. When I look at porn I do it for up to 2 hours and I feel dreadful immediately after and beat myself up about it. Anyway, I’m going to try updating this thread every day with my progress and hopefully get the ball rolling. My starting goal is 30 days.

Also, my code is a4h62o. It’d be cool to connect with some of you who are in a similar situation.

Thanks.

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Brother, keep believing in yourself. Without that nothing is possible. This is the turning point in your life . Make a strong commitment that you are not going back to your old shitty habit, no matter what. With that attitude you can do this @anon96706428 Glad that you started this journel. Keep going.

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You can do it bro.keep going.

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Welcome to rewire!

You came to the right place. We’re all suffering from the same basic thing, and my experience is that everyone here does a great job helping each other.
One day at a time man, you can do this!!

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For a good start of NoFap,
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Whenever there is a porn urge, instead of going incognito, log into this Forum and Start reading random topics.

You’ll gain both knowledge and confidence of succeeding. Urges will come and go. Time never comes back in our hands. Use it well

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Four days clean. Trying to keep myself busy when alone. Those are the most dangerous times.

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You’re doing great :wink:
Just please, try to change your thinking. Don’t think about relapses, about how to avoid them.
Instead think about how to make yourself a better man, how to improve, what to achieve, what you’ve acheived already. How much has your life changed. Have a good day!

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Hey, thanks for the comment! You’re right about focusing on the positive. Day 5 clean today. Feel like I have much more time in the day now and much more control over how I can spend it. Looking forward to going a full week.

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Another succesful day. I don’t think I’ve ever done this many days of consecutive journaling before. Accountability matters. Had a couple of set backs in other areas of my life this week but my consistency in this has kept me pushing through them.

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You’re right! Stay strong :muscle:

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It’s been a week now. I actually feel like I might have turned a corner with this. My progress is starting to give me confidence in other areas of my life - proof that I am able to break long-time habits.

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Had some serious urges today but ultimately resisted, though admittedly with the help of web block add-ons I installed at the beginning of all this. Also I’ve never really taken seriously the mental benefits people purport to gain from abstaining, but I think I might actually be experiencing some. Could be coincidence, but I do feel a little more confident, optimistic, and in control. Eight days.

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I unexpectedly failed today. Found myself in quite a low mood and ended up breaking several good habit streaks in quick succession. I thought about lying about it too. But the fact that I haven’t - and that I probably would have in the past - is keeping me positive. Nine days to beat.

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