[26M] The_integrous_one's diary

That’s a thing of the past, he will break the streak when I will do it I think :joy: (jk).

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hmmm, I’ve actually been doing farely well since last year August, but I do remember times when I used to be stuck, especially in 12 days loop. Mostly sitting down and mulling/journaling over what is going wrong used to work for me, in beginner stage the book easy peasy helped to enter good mindset, then gym and all i.e following positive habits also plays a major role.

That’s actually not realistic :joy:, but thanks for good wishes dude, same wishes for you.
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Didn’t understand this, Sorry if this sounds rude but I don’t even know what’s your streak right now bro :joy:

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It’s 26 days at the moment. And don’t worry the last time I went past day 20 I converted it into a 132 day streak, just 2 less than your highest.

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I knew you will comment like that :joy::joy:
I put it to trigger you only otherwise it would be weird to use permanent with life as life equals continuous changing

Anyway thanks for tips

Another question if you don’t mind and i am sure you wouldn’t :joy:

Is reading required when you are on no fap streak ??
As in my current state , I don’t do reading because of study

But this makes me think a little that i am unprotected mentally or something like that
So does no fap streak require reading in order to be a successful one or at least a prolonged one ?

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Heck yeah let’s go :fire::fire::fire:
Finally the hunting has gone well :lion: :tiger: hunter
Keep going :smirk:

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No no, no such necessity, you don’t read to protect your streak, you read to grow yourself and if you are studying on a regular basis that is also enougj for mental development, reading good self help or self development books is recommended in general because they help to improve your overall personality.

:rofl::rofl::rofl::rofl::rofl::rofl: Almost forgot about that.
But yup it has :joy:.

thanks thanks, You too.

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Bro has reached to Boss level :muscle: :fire:
Finally getting all the things you have been working towards to :fist_right:
So happy to see you achieving heights brother, You have been a great motivator and showed us how being kind and hard working can get you so many things in this life not quickly but eventually in the long run :100:
We all have seen you fall, Now we shall all witness your rise :fire:

Keep moving forward Man

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Not me tho.

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Bro didn’t fall bro just kept getting better!

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Bro never gave up even after falling
That’s a key takeaway to just keep going and never give up
And focus more on becoming best version of ourselves !

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“If it’s the worst day, I’ll write the longest journal about it”

— Samaranjay

on-the-way-marc-spector

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arre brothers, so many heart warming comments here, thanks a lot @rewire_user

:face_holding_back_tears:
Bhagwan ki kripa :pray:

:joy:

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22nd May 2024
It’s day 78 of no p**n, and I am here to specify that I am just following easy/normal mode.
It has been a little over a month since I started the relationship with my girlfriend. It has been going well and It is mostly long distance but we meet once in a while and we talk almost daily over the phone.
I met her recently and I got really insecure because of some incident which was actually before she started feeling for me and I acted quite emotionally, thankfully she understands that anyone can get insecure and she said that she’s there to support me but still I am feeling a little guilty for springing so many emotions on her.
But I know I am not like this, this phase comes once in a while and I know the reason behind it as well which is that I need to work on myself.

Since during work I get very less time, 12 hours work, gym and talking to her is all I do there apart from sleep and even in gym I didn’t do that well like just about 30 minutes a day in gym, so yeah obviously I feel fat and I have gained like 2-3 kgs.
Spirituality has become zero, like I am not able to devote any time to God, maybe 1-2 minutes a day that’s all. No meditation either, no Gita reading. Nothing.

So yeah I am at home for next 10 days and I am gonna take these 10 days to work on myself and gain my composure back.

I am getting into mutiple hobbies.
1 car driving, 2 gym, 3 guitar, 4 basketball.
Tomorrow onwards 9:30 am I’ll go for driving, after that gym from 11-1 or so.
Lunch after 1, guitar after lunch, then playing.
I also wanna devote time to prayer, meditation and Gita reading, this I’ll have to plan with her I think, because she was asking me to start a habit of meditating together. Or I can do this after returning from gym before lunch. We’ll see. And yeah also in the evening when I don’t go to play I can devote more time to read Gita.

Plus I need to practice gratitude to focus on positives especially relationship wise rather than focusing on some minor negatives which actually don’t have any relation with the present.
Moreover I am cutting sugar out completely.
So yeah set of hobbies and routines that needs to be followed:

  1. Car driving
  2. Workout
  3. Prayers
  4. Meditation
  5. Gita Reading
  6. Practicing gratitude
  7. Guitar ( Not necessary to follow everyday)
  8. Kegel exercises (as often as possible)
  9. No sugar

Today my plans are a little different, will go for car driving in 10 minutes, then will go for swimming with friends, Guitar I’ll just revise previous lessons today in the afternoon, then will attend a new class tomorrow, no playing in the evening today because we played a lot yesterday rather I am going out with two of my school time friends.

Oh yeah and I’ve improved in work now, I work well and people have also starting relying on me to some extent and some even appreciate me. This probably because when I am at work I skip lunch to catch up on sleep. Though it us hard to not have lunch but it is worth it, I just have some buttermilk and eat fruits in evening tea break, It would be better if I could follow some similar routine at home but that’s not possible so I’m going with the flow.

Anyway, time to get going.

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Here to update for the day.

  1. :white_check_mark:Car driving
  2. :white_check_mark:Workout: Just swimming
  3. Prayers
  4. Meditation
  5. Gita Reading
  6. :white_check_mark:Practicing gratitude
  7. Guitar ( Not necessary to follow everyday)
  8. :white_check_mark:Kegel exercises (as often as possible)
  9. No sugar: Fucked up in this, completely forgot about it, had a milkshake and soft drink.

Hmmmmm didn’t make time for spiritual practices again. Though I was feeling comparitively more stable emotionally, I still asked her a question filled with insecurity, she even got mad at me for it, conflict still needs to be resolved but it was actually important for the future of our relationship and I focused a lot on the positives so all good from my side now.

It’s 1:41 am already :skull:, and I probably have to go for car driving at 8:30 am, we have also planned to play basketball in the evening, I also have a guitar class at 2:30 pm, I also wanted to go to gym in morning but I also need to revise guitar lessons before tomorrow’s class, which I did not do today. So if time allows I’ll just workout at home for sometime. And also focus on 3,4,5 no. hobbies before lunch itself.

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Ah shit, it was 5 days ago that I posted the routines to be followed and haven’t done shit.
I have been pretty lazy now a days, I feel quite tired because of exessive playing/gymming, plus it’s become quite hot here, one more factor contributing to tiredness and laziness would be that when I am free my mind keeps indulging in sexual thoughts and behaviours, thankfully all my sexual thoughts are directed towards one person and I don’t need pornography now, which used to be the aim, to get rid of ■■■■ and I am also not gonna reset my streak either until and unless I indulge in ■■■■ or do something based on ■■■■ related thoughts.

But I still need to get a hold on myself, staying too free doesn’t help in anyway. I am not able to think straight because haven’t been doing anything much productive now a days. Just some outing once in a while with sister or friends, playing, not eveb gymming properly, plus I know the effectiveness of home workouts but for some reason my gf doesn’t understand that and I haven’t even been doing home workouts.
Anyway I did need rest today but the day hadn’t been going as I thought it would go.
As usual I went for driving lesson in the morning which has been interfering with my sleep largely, then had some breakfast and spent the rest of the time lying in my bed.
Just few minutes ago I had a cold shower which made me feel good about myself.
It’s 2 pm now and I am finally feeling fresh, I have 45 minutes of a movie left to watch with my family, will do that while having lunch, after that I’ll follow some meditative practices, do prayers and read Bhagavad Gita.
Will probably plan an outing with friends or sister in the evening. Already done with napping so no afternoon nap today :joy:.
Ok then, will add an update at night about how the rest of the day went.

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12th July 1:30 am
It’s been 128 days since I’ve gotten involved in pornographic content, infact I don’t even feel the need for it now, but yeah in recent days I have observed some minor cravings to go back to old ways.
But good thing is that my whole life revolves around only one person now a days and I am also kinda addicted to her :joy:, we both really cherish each other’s presence in each other’s life, and since there’s complete loyalty, it plays a major role that I don’t get involved in ■■■■ and all, even if something of that kind pops up all I can think about is her only.
Rest everything is ok, I’ve had a new realisation lately which was that I was eating way too carelessly which in turn was taking toll on my blood pressure and a little bit on body as well.
I am at home currently, I have to catch a flight to work on Saturday morning, just have one more day at home.

I have been fairly consistent with gym but I’ve been shirking off lately and I really want to have proper workout sessions. But yeah whenever I am at home I play basketball quite oftenly, even last evening I went to play.
Ohhh and yeah I’ve learnt how to drive now, today was the first time I took the car alone to the place where I play (16 kms from home), usually I used to go by bike which also I learnt recently only.
Guitar, my online course time limit ended, I learnt well but I don’t think I learnt everything and also one of the strings is broken now, I don’t think I have a spare one so didn’t even play in this holiday viz about to end.

Tomorrow morning what I’ll do is wakeup around 9 or 10, clean my room, go to gym, then go to a wedding for lunch, in the evening I’ll do some packing and some work related preparations.
Anyway I am sleepy af now, just wanted to write some stuff here which idk why maybe because I saw some old people returning.
Goodnight.

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I first thought fligjt was an Indian word :rofl::rofl:

Anywho, glad to see you again, pallo. Looks like life’s is a lot better than it was before, thank God. I see you’re still working on improving your life and, if I’m not wrong, you are happy because your post brought a smile on my face.

Good day to you, sir :saluting_face:

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yes bruh I am generally happy now a days.
Plus yeah, self improvement is a part of life and it’s important for me and also for people around me.
How’ve you been doing?

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Fine and alhamdulillah, even though I’m struggling with passivity. I have to be serious about my decisions and not “let it be”. So yeah in other words, I became more lazy :joy: Big part of it because all I did this year was to sit. Sitting while studying, sitting while playing the piano, sitting while eating, sitting, sitting… I gotta start moving this summer and that’s what I’m working on nowadays.

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158 days streak, its a different kind of streak than usual but I have been completely free from ■■■■ and the purpose for which one is supposed to follow no fap has been resolved, the purpose of being able to give your partner all that they deserve. My mind is wired for her only now :joy:.
I have been doing much better in work as well, I feel like I am in control now, I don’t let anyone fool me or bully me in anyway and my girlfriend has a big role in this, she taught me how to take stand for myself.
Gym and exercise wise things are a little stagnant because I have limited time especially in work days, I still manage to find atleast some time for gymming but in off period everything seems to be working out, basketball and gym almost regularly, but next 10 days I am gonna spend travelling only lol, so won’t be getting much exercise, and yeah diet wise I am getting a little bit more concious than I used to. Spirituality wise also I’ve not been doing much but I do remember to thank God once in a while and pray almost regularly.
Ok then, take care people. I hope everyone is doing well.

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