[26M] KarmaYogi's Diary - Fighting back PMO and its consequences..One battle at a time

#21

Dear diary,

My determination to get rid of pmo is getting stronger.
Also, I have started doing yoga and meditation again. Today I tried my best to work hard as much as possible.

Day #3 hard mode
Day #3 of 730 monkmode

#22

hmm… wait… if we write a diary, so will it shared automatically?

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#23

Finally I completed 1 week. I feel much lighter and quite relieved. I feel more confident and optimistic about my nofap journey. Today I sat and thought of my career … made a plan and even Studied for 3-4 hours. Hope with every coming day things will get better

Day#8 hardmode

#24

Good bhai… Keep going.

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#25

Dear diary,

Started going to gym now. My daily routine now includes gym, yoga, meditation and studies. But I am not able to do it consistently. Next target it to get more disciplined and consistent with daily routine.
I am trying to make even gym more productive by listening to podcasts while doing cardio.

Day#10 hardmode

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#26

Dear Diary,

I am trying to make every day better. I got a cook to prepare my food. Also I adjusted my commute timings to save the time in traffic jams. This all gives me grossly 1.5-2 hours more to focus on the primary things, the things that really matter. Now I am entirely focused on my career and health.
Today I tried not to look a girl second time irrespective of however hot/sexy she is. I dont even care even if the most hottest girl passes beside me. This gives me a sense of self conquer. Those who are reading this, do give it a try.

Day#11 Hardmode

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#27

Today I drank with my colleagues. This robbed me of my 4-5 productive hours and my entire daily routine got messed up. I am trying to quit drinking as well now.

Day#12 hardmode

#28

Dear diary,

I am still struggling to get things in order. I have committed a lot but I am hardly delivering anything. I am not even least consistent in yoga or gym or basically anything. God help me inculcate self discipline and help me become the karmayogi.

Day15# hardmode

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#29

Be the yogi not bhogi .

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#30

Dear Diary,

I am getting better at becoming more disciplined. Today I did almost everything that was on to do list.
My dream is to pursue MS from a top University in USA. I have started working towards my goal.

Day#24 Hardmode

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#31

Dear diary,

Once again I am back to zero. My loneliness has taken a heavy toll on me. Yesterday after 40 days I fapped several times. Starting everything again.

Day 1

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#32

A very touching diary… Seems hard for you and seeing you relapse… Respect for you streak, this a very good one.

Your situation is at it is today, you can’t change it in an instant. You surely feel really bad and lonely, but at least you are honest with yourself , you know that porn is killing you and that you need to fight it.

Whatever happens, being honest with ourselves is the best thing feeling we can have , this is what i saw.
You can be as bad as you can but at least, be honest, continue your journey , you are doing this for you, for your body and because you know that you don’t want porn.

Continue, again and again, don’t abandon yourself. If you get up everyday, there is maybe someone inside you who thinks that you can still change things and become who you really are.
I can understand how you feel but continue.

That’s what i think.
Let us continue shall we ?

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#33

Thanks a lot brother.
Yes I will fight again

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#34

Dear diary,

Sadly I am back to where I started, I fell from 70 then from 40 and now holding on for even few days seems to be challenge. Oh my God , when is this gonna end ???
I have realised that more I distance my self from this app . The more I get demotivated and eventually I relapse. Now onwards I will update my diary daily. I think this is the only way to make this idea of nofap get stuck in my subconscious mind.

Day#0 hardmode

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#35

Love। to read your daily diary . This time complete your diary with 90 days reboot process . Best of luck brother

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#36

dw bro im 25 virgin nevet had gf.

issues with anxiety disordrr and depression before

youre not alone!

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#37

Dear Diary,
Today was day#1. I woke up a little late.

I have prepared a checklist to be followed everyday.
And I will be putting check marks

:white_check_mark: Followed properly
:negative_squared_cross_mark: Followed partially
:x: Not followed

  1. Got up at 4 AM :negative_squared_cross_mark:
  2. Yoga :white_check_mark:
  3. Meditation :negative_squared_cross_mark:
  4. Worship :negative_squared_cross_mark:
  5. No Sugar :x:
  6. No Social Media :x:
  7. Study 6 hours :x:
  8. Goals Visualisation :x:

Day#1 Hardmode

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#38

My friend I can understand your situation very well. You are doing amazing but
There is a key ingredient that you are missing I am today on day 25 of monk mode with almost 0 uncontrollable urges. I will love helping you out. Please contact me on +919111995372 what’s app. Don’t worry.

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#39

Hi bro, it would be great if you can post the knowledge of your ingredient hereitself. Everyone will get benefitted.

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#40

Dear Diary,
Today was day#2. Again I woke up a little late. It might take some while before I am back to waking up early.
I am trying to get obsessed with my goal of scoring 330+ in GRE. Its an ambitious goal. But I have to achieve it to turn my life around .

Today my checklist looks like below:

:white_check_mark: Followed properly
:negative_squared_cross_mark: Followed partially
:x: Not followed

  1. Got up at 4 AM :x:
  2. Yoga :white_check_mark:
  3. Meditation :white_check_mark:
  4. Worship :negative_squared_cross_mark:
  5. No Sugar :white_check_mark:
  6. No Social Media :x:
  7. Study 6 hours :x: Studied for an hour today
  8. Goals Visualisation :x:
  9. Cold Showers: :white_check_mark:

Day#2 Hardmode

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