Today has been an outpouring of support, love and congratulations. This truly is a beautiful community. People really deserve to break free of this addiction.
@HE-MAN123 Thank you for your kind words on the message board my friend!
You are my Hero ā¦ You are my idealā¦ You are a Championā¦ You are a Conquerorā¦
You are a very kind manā¦ You are worthyā¦ You are nobleā¦ You are a symbol of brotherhoodā¦ You are the one who can guide this whole communityā¦ You are a True Leader.
Love & Peaceā¦ You are riding on your horseā¦ We all are cheering for youā¦ Go furtherā¦ Cross all boundariesā¦ Make a beautiful lifeā¦ Dont ever leave usā¦ we all need youā¦
@Sahas Brother, thank you for your wonderful compliments.
Iām just a man like you, trying my best to overcome this and to help my friends along the way. It was you who inspired me to write this diary. I wanted to be like you and give more in this community. You are a hero also.
Can you kindly add me to the group or share me the link. Iām a fresher in the group. Presently in my day 3 of no PMO ā¦iād need all the motivation and encouragement that i can get
I need to spend some time reflecting on the next steps and re-affirming my commitments to the journey and continuing to improve daily. Iāve slipped up with my morning routine for the past few days, and thatās not good. I donāt want to sleep in; I want to be consistent. There are many great things to be doing each day. GOD willing, I will continue to improve.
Today, I was checking my emails and I received an explicit spam email with pornographic images. I was disgusted and deleted it straight away. A few seconds later, I realised what Iād just done and tears of gratitude rolled down my cheek. There are so many ways that event could have gone wrong; I could have decided that it wasnāt my fault for coming across the images but no harm in looking, right? Or been triggered enough to start searching for other material. But no, this life has become an automatic habit now. Thank GOD!
Itās time to make other areas of my life instinctual in the same way. Regular exercise. Completing daily tasks. Learning a language. The journey continues.
My dark passenger returned yesterday with a vengeance. Those were the strongest urges Iāve had since beginning this streak. I battled with them all through the night until 7AM. I refused to give up after coming this far. I had to go back and read my posts for motivation and encouragement. In the end, I proved that I was stronger than the urge.
But I didnāt achieve a complete victory, sadly. I succumbed to watching some kissing prank videos on YouTube. This only fed the urges more, like my saying - donāt use gasoline to put out a fire. I donāt want to watch those kinds of videos. I want to see women with genuine love and affection as fellow human beings, not objectify them and reduce them to tools for false pleasure as Iāve done so often in the past.
I learned just how crucial it is to respect each day and be thankful for how far Iāve come. Too far to go back - itās so easy to fall back into old habits, but Iām choosing not to. Iām choosing to continue with this new life Iāve built. Now that Iāve started my journey towards Nineveh, I canāt go back and end up trapped in the belly of the whale once more. There are so many blessings in my life now. I thank GOD for this journey. The days on my counter are just a bonus. Gratitude is a must. Everyday has to be approached with the same diligence and respect as Day One from now on.
Not only that, but Iāve been blessed with amazing companions on this journey; companions I can and should have reached out to when I was struggling. I cannot be prideful regarding having passed 90 days. Whether Iām on 100 days or 10 years, I must ask for help if I need it. This journey is NOT EASY! Itās not the worldās strongest addiction for nothing.
hey buddy
you are my big inspiration. you know that you donāt need PMO. and you are doing it with a good, healthy mindset. keep moving. write down on paper what is bothering you. give yourself some time to relax and sleep properly.
please, you really donāt wanna be where I am right now. you are climbing out of the deep pits of hell on earth. you came so far. just keep moving.
Iāll take some time and reflect on my journey. I need to renew my commitment. Iāve fought so hard to get to 90 days that I lost sight of the journey. This is only another stop along the way.
After seeing how easy it is to fall back into old habits, Iām extra cautious at this time, especially given the chaser effect. Relapsing is always an option, but itās not one Iām choosing to make. Iāve set up some accountability software on all my devices and a friend will monitor my activity online and help keep me on track.
@anon67854825 Thanks man. Thatās definitely something I want to work on - treating and looking after myself.
I really enjoy reading - I could do more reading for fun instead of educational. I like to dance and listen to good music but I hardly do that. I really like cake Iāve been worried about going back to old junk food habits but a treat now and again wouldnāt hurt.
Iāll think more about this. Itās a different mindset to what I had in the past; I did things more out of habit than because I enjoyed them, so I spent loads of time watching senseless TV and playing video games which I didnāt even care about completing.
I love cake too. Cake is awesome, Thanks be to God, truly
Thank you for creating the person who delights in making a good cake, so that we can delight in the creation and say āwow, this is good cakeāā¦ ānom nom nomā
I love Maria Callas the great Opera singer.
She brings tears to my eyes, I very rarely listen to her because I never want to tire of her beauty.
If I could choose a fragrance for you itād be Versace Man - because its wise, mature, gentle, confident, yet humbly light.
Sweet masculinity, made for Great Kings.
I love Versace The Dreamer, because it is exactly that if you want to know what Lucid dreams smell like, itās definitely that one.
@anon67854825 Yes, thank GOD for cake and those who prepare it!
I think part of my journey should include some healthy exploration into other activities as well - I donāt know much about opera or fragrances, but Iām interested in finding out more.
More changes are needed. I grew into the person capable of passing 90 days, now I must grow into the one who can pass a year. Two years. Five years.
One day at a time. Thank GOD Iām still standing. Iāve had to swallow some harsh truths. Iām grateful for my friends and companions. One friend has suggested that I stop using YouTube. Manā¦itās barely been a day and thatās seriously difficult. YouTube has been a staple food since 2009. But Iām here to recover fully.
Iāve been worried about going back to old junk food habits but a treat now and again wouldnāt hurt.