After 250 days. I was experiencing some depression and challenges in life, things didn’t go to plan, and going through a flatline. I stopped being disciplined, stopped my positive habits and went back to eating loads of junk food and binge watching Netflix.
That was the perfect environment for me to break my commitment to myself, and I made poor choices.
I started looking again at women in the streets, watching these modern sexualised music videos and movies and finally I decided to search for pornography and I watched some for a few minutes. That peek was enough to send me back into the addiction.
I reset my counter after peeking, but when I reached 45 days again, I made poor choices again and I had a full PMO relapse, and became a binge PMOer again. Through these decisions, I became an addict again. I went back to streaks like 21 days, 18 days, 21 days and when I relapsed I would binge and do PMO multiple times in a day. I became the complete opposite of the man I was just a few months before, and I was choosing so many self-destructive habits.
I know that when we’re feeling stress, anxiety and going through challenges in life, we want to take it easy on ourselves and leave our self-discipline. That is the time that we need it the MOST because we are vulnerable.
Whatever is going on in your life, continue your positive habits, find a healthy way to relieve stress and do not peek or touch your penis for a second. You have left that living hell behind you. Don’t choose to fall down, it’s never worth it. PMO is still garbage.
You’ve been to day 100 before, you know how hard it is to climb the mountain again. Do not look back.