Gayatri Mantra chanting before sleeping last night
Workout: 35 min
Prayer
Affirmations, Visualisation
Reading and contemplating the daily stoic
Reading Bhagawad Gita
Cold shower
No daytime nap
Meditation: 20 min
No internet till dinner except for studies/important matters
No Sugar
Shutdown Ritual/planning for the next day
Last night even though my phone was on detox, I again spent some time watching some shows on my laptop, I realized one thing that my mind was craving dopamine because recently I had given my mind quite some free doses of dopamine and since I realised pmo is just addictive and not worth it, my mind wanted some other source of dopamine, hence all the shows, and then I suddenly remembered one line from Terry Crews, he said, ‘people say that there’s no way you can get addicted to such things, but I’ll tell you, if day turns into night then probably(sarcastic tone) you’ve got a problem’ and I realized even sitcoms are addictive , because I’d been watching them all day yesterday rather than dealing with my actual issues (mainly studies) so I gotta steer clear of them atleast until I am absolutely free and have nothing to do.
Also since I was pretty unproductive and was up late I did get some urges from time to time. My mind tricked me to go for some around the perimeter searches on detox browser, but that browser doesn’t allow opening most sites so all well , but I should steer clear of doing this as well. And I am thankful that I didn’t give in to any urges, I feel like I have deliberately travelled through fire yesterday, being unproductive, just watching shows, staying up late, all of it was a recipe for relapse but thank God I didn’t fall for pmo trap and I hope such an unproductive day never comes again . I also had a nightfall which I didn’t even realise until after I woke up.
Oh and also one more thing, I listened to bhajans yesterday just after waking up, I should avoid that too because bhajans are a type of music only and a good source of dopamine, listening to music later in the day is fine but not in the morning, you won’t feel like taking on hard tasks if you supply easy dopamine to your brain in the morning, same reason people ask you to not use mobile in morning.
(Wrote until here in my offline notes in the morning after waking up to take things off my mind)
About the day today, it was ok ok, not too productive not bad either, for some reason feeling a little bit anxious, maybe because my father was contantly worrying and in turn making me worry about how I would be able to go this far for interview all on my own , he thinks I am irresponsible , I might have been in the past and who knows you can’t get too confident about your abilities , I’ll just have to be careful.
I am fan of this app…this app is the best app.
Yesterday i detoxed for.9 hrs.and…after 2 hrs i wanted too somhow close the app… bht tha app is just too op.i long press the power button soo it could restart and i can use mobile again …but as soon as i did that…after restarting mobile…the next second detox app screen pop up……there is no going back…so I have no choice but to keep mobile away frm me…for 9 hrs… Thanks @The_integrous_one for suggesting it.
Yup I have also tried that couple of times, no going back .
No issues bro, I suggest this app because it’s actually good. Good to know it’s helping you too.
I am detoxing for 22 hours now a days everyday😂. Mobile open just for 2 hours, rest of the time I have MI music, some study apps and detox browser in app whitelist.
25th May 16:22
I listened to some songs that have been saved in my mobile for a long time and almost each one has a memory attached to it and after that I felt a sudden very strong urge to socialise and connect with friends and since I had no other source for this I visited RC via laptop . Haven’t studied much today, really feeling weird withdrawal syptoms this time because I did mess up quite bad in past few days. I know this’ll get better with time. Maybe I’ll go to play today for some time. Or maybe I’ll study. Let’s see.
Nice decision bro , I’ve been doing 23 hours detox for a month now , whitelisting some apps. Please consider this as an sort of concern than advice. Productivity apps is always great , but I would suggest some apps or games which can make you happy and non addictive at the same time. Like music or something. Near to my 15th day , after detoxing I was feeling my life as hell. I know its a part of rewiring process but honestly it was an absolute hell. I has also lead me to MO a few days back. But now , I am used to this detox. So please consider this.
Gayatri Mantra chanting before sleeping last night
Workout: 35 min
Prayer
Affirmations, Visualisation
Reading and contemplating the daily stoic
Reading Bhagawad Gita
Cold shower
No daytime nap
Meditation: 20 min
No internet till dinner except for studies/important matters: Used RC in the afternoon
No Sugar: Had some Imarati
Shutdown Ritual/planning for the next day
Again quite unproductive day , even though I kept an alarm still slept for 10 hours , this happens very rarely, after that I had no plan to be unproductive but it still happened, used RC in the day, then did some skateboarding, played some basketball with my sister in courtyard, we also played song guessing game afterwards, then had dinner and watched tv with family, that was my day today .
Also my parents went to a function and brought back imarati, how could I have said no to that . Also had dry paneer paranthas for dinner, which were awesome. I am really hoping that I would study today , even though I know we are not supposed to hope for anything, just live in present but still .
26th May 12:13 Pm
Last night I opened telegram and made some around the perimeter searches, did find some triggering content, I was feeling in control but then again one thing led to anothee and didn’t even realise how I was watching some stupid content .
So yeah starting again.
Putting mobile on detox at night was really helpful but then I started being careless with laptop use which led to this.
I’ll keep my laptop out of my room at night now on.
Man this is a vicious loop, letting your mind engage in such activities leads to low energy, low motivation which leads to low productivity and low productivity leads to urges and mindless browsing , starting days are really crucial, it’s best to steer clear of anything that can lead to a slip up.
Yeah why not. I didn’t see any such open challenge though
Also to be honest I don’t think the challenge is gonna work out for me, it will just make me think of how I am trying to quit porn.
I need to change my mindset to someone who doesn’t have to try to quit it, someone who just doesn’t bother about it.
Pta nhi kya kya bol rha hoon, dimmag bhi kaam nhi kr rha hai
Yuss , my stupid brain is slowly ruining everything for me.
Yeah I had been sleeping by 12 almost everyday but yesterday after my phone got locked I opened laptop to use RC because I was having good talks, I had no intention to relapse but as my laptop was open I got tricked by my brain and fell for it.
Yeah that’s true, my problem is porn only, I had been addicted to it only, I don’t think I ever MOed without it except during childhood or teenage, working on getting rid of that only. But I am still not sure about joining a challenge just for that . I’ll be joining last man standing challenge as soon as it reopens.
No internet till dinner except for studies/important matters
No Sugar
Shutdown Ritual/planning for the next day
So I basically spent most of my day going through self improvement videos and adding some good podcasts on Spotify to listen while taking walks, also I installed previous version of Spotify just to change the environment of my Spotify because I had messed it up as well .
I came across a YouTuber Hamza, man his videos are so damn awesome here’s a video introducing the purpose of his channel
The way he shows stark differences between Jeffrey and Addoniss are epic, one is a depressed regular coomer and otherone is Giga Chad himself basically both are the persons that lie on one side of each of our decisions, we have to decide everytime which person we wanna be.
Anyway my uncle is visiting us today, he’ll probably reach im few minutes now at night yeah , then we’ll have some talks before sleeping, I’ll follow the usual detox and make sure I keep my laptop away, I won’t even use the laptop for using the forum, no devices after 11:15 and that’s it, no matter what.
I just have tomorrow and day after tomorrow now for studying I’ll give my best both days, I am just not hoping to do good but I’ll do good . I also have to go for a haircut tomorrow morning, I am done with being a weak a**hole, not anymore, I am the incharge of my mind and energy and it’s not the other way round.
Gratefulness journal
, because I’d been watching them all day yesterday rather than dealing with my actual issues (mainly studies) so I gotta steer clear of them atleast until I am absolutely free and have nothing to do.
, he thinks I am irresponsible 
, I might have been in the past and who knows you can’t get too confident about your abilities 
here’s a video introducing the purpose of his channel
. I also have to go for a haircut tomorrow morning, I am done with being a weak a**hole, not anymore, I am the incharge of my mind and energy and it’s not the other way round.