(23) Simon's journey to quit porn and masturbation forever

You are doing so great to your life and your mind @SimonFelix

Don’t let your brain play with you to tell you that you can’t because you can deal with yourself , you can do this :zap::zap::muscle:

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Thank you for the encouraging words!! I wish you the best as well and that you will succeed on your road to greatness!

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This May 30: I woke up at 7:05 AM and did a yoga session. I stayed at my parents place and went back home late. Again no urges.

I still wanted to do some more physical activity this week, but preparing for the presentation had a higher priority. So i am not too upset. I am looking more confident towards the next week.

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Unfortunately I just masturbated which is a relapse with my new goals. It will be more difficult to stay clean and i obviously know that. But i learned something from my relapse which will be very valuable for future temptations. I will keep fighting!

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Check in May 31: As already mentioned in the previous comment i have relapsed today. But it is just a small setback on my road to quitting these addictions and i can learn from it.

I woke up at 7:10 AM and meditated. I mainly did some stuff for my part-time job today. Nothing to crazy.

The urges in the morning were too much for me today. I have to keep track about my temptations. I seem to be very vulnerable in the early hours of a new day.

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  1. June: I just relapsed. Again. I woke up early, but then fell asleep shortly after. The whole day was just me not having any energy to do stuff. Right now it is also very late. It will take a while until i can recover from today and yesterday. I have to take small steps at a time to recover well.
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June 2: While i still wasnt as productive, i did meditate and also did a workout. I will try to wake up earlier as well on the next day.

I had some urges here and there. But nothing compared to the last days.

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June 3: I woke up a little bit earlier than in yesterday at 9 AM. I was able to meditate and eat healthy today. I didnt do anything for university though. Instead i was reading alot.

My urges today werent too bad.

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June 4: I woke up at 8:15 AM, but didnt workout. I will meditate though in a bit (before i go to sleep). It still feels like i am unable to be productive which is frustrating to say the least. Over the course of the day i didnt have urges, but about an hour ago they have started coming. And they still dont stop!
I had to fight them of again and again until this point while i am writing this message. Hopefully the meditation can calm me down.

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June 5: I woke up at the same time like yesterday. I mediated, worked out and I read alot. It still seems really hard to focus on university.

I also had absolutely terrible urges in the morning. I cant recall them being this bad before. Today felt like i just had to push through every task i did with alot of willpower and energy, it was really exhausting. I hope tomorrow will be less stressful.

June 6: Thankfully, this day wasnt as stressful and i was able to meditate, eat healthy and work for university. I still had some urges, but i did overcome them fairly easy. The only annoying thing today was that i overslept, a thing that has happened a little bit too often lately.

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June 7: I woke up at 8:15 AM. Workout and meditation inclusive. I also did work for my sidejob and university. A great day overall.

I had no urges as well!

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I want to be honest here. Even though i really dont want to say myself that i relapsed, i sure did. I was going through my browser history and found some leftover entries with erotic content. I deleted all but one of them and that was my mistake. Out of curiosity i clicked and i tried to avoid looking at anything, but well that is basically impossible. Because at the end of a day you just cant handle yourself in these moments and i ended up peeking.

So i will reset my timer. But i have learned alot about my addiction again. There are no excuses. Either you fully commit to nofap and make no exclusions or you will always be trapped in your PMO life.

This experience made finally install an app on my phone that blocks specific sites permamently. My most dangerous websites (twitter and reddit) are hopefully now gone forever.

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Not great news, but thanks for sharing. Send you a DM

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June 8: I am happy that i was honest to myself today. Yes, i have relapsed which is bad, but atleast i have learned alot about it as well, so that i can come back more prepared for dealing with future temptations.

Because my relapse happened early in the day, i was using the day to take a deep breather and reflect on what went wrong. I listened to a university lecture as well and meditated.

I will try to bounce back from this and be stronger next time!

Tomorrow i will also get my second covid vaccination. I hope that everything will go well🤞🏻

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June 9: I woke up at 9 AM (i went late to bed) and meditated. I prepared everything for the vaccination and ate well. The vaccination itself was good and I didnt have any side effects.

No urges today.

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How to download that book?

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Do you mean the EasyPeasy book? Maybe there is a download option as well like converting it to a pdf document. When i use the book i just open up the website.

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Gotcha bruh thanks:)

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June 10: In the last night my immune defense system was activated which made me feel sick. So today i had to take it easy and i took a rest to recover. I am still not 100% back, but i hope that i can be productive tomorrow.

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