[23 M] My 90 day Journey for a compulsion free life

I’ve created this topic so that I can see how each day has effected me. Umm I hope that by doing this I can become better at controlling myself and mastering my emotions. I’ll come back tonight for the first entry, Good luck to us all :blush:
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Good luck to you! It’s never to early (or too late) to start this and be your best self.

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Thank you and good luck to you for your goals! :blush::innocent:

Day 0
Ok so today was basically the first day on this journey. I’m pretty ecxited about what lies ahead and I’ve made a plan for urges, I’m going to be doing alot from today onwards ,I’m going to stay busy alot and watch motivational videos as much as I can so that I can stay motivated in the long run.
Today was a bit ok day. Normally after I’ve relapsed , I usually feel quite sad and dejected , which was not the case today. I felf happier than most days. And all of this is not because I am a nasty person who is happy after a PMO session , it was because I worked on myself when going about my day. As soon as I could , I recited the Holy Quran , then I read a self help book about feeling my fear but still doing the things. I realize that in order for the brain to grow I have to do positive stuff so I’m watching documentaries from today , about random stuff but only of stuff I find interesting. I’m on a social media break for 6 months , I hope I can safely use them after 6 months. There is still some energy left from my previous streak of two weeks. Whenever I close my fist I can feel tbe energy. There are some problems at hime and I hope that the emotional toll of these lroble.s does not lead me to PMO rather that I figure out how to deal with them , like a normal person. I’ve had some pkrn flashbacks but I quickly countered them with watching a football match lol :joy:. No urges today , but since it’s the day 0 I didn’t suspect any. I did get a random boner about one hour ago , lol always a nice feeling getting these boners :joy::joy:. Anyways , my journey begins today and I hope it goes smoothly for the next 90 days Insha Allah
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Day 1 :
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Ok so I had a pretty decent day today. I’ve had terrible headaches since morning , they wouldn’t let me study so I had to take medicine to ward them off. I think I’ve just experienced a no PMO withdrawl effect so it kind of made me happier to experience it. I also noticed that I was alot angrier than usuall which is a negative change I guess. I’m following most of my positive habits and I am one more day closer to my goal and I’m happy about that :blush:.
I’m much happier than yesterday and although my body keot asking me to play video games to waste time and get dopamine bursts , instead I watched a cricket match. The fantasizing is not decreasing I had to repeatedly slap myslef today to wake myself up from a fantasy that I was experiencing at that moment. No porn flashbacks though , thank God. That’s about all I experienced from my journey today so I’m logging off I’ll be back tomorroe hopefully with some changes , for now though , bye! :raised_hand_with_fingers_splayed:

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Day 2 :
Hey! So today has been good. I feel like I’m much more happier today. The urges are coming though I can feel them . I’ve had less fantasies today so that’s good. I feel like I’m finding real women more attractive bit I couldn’t be too sure. I’ve had a tiny burst of energy today. I’ve been craving dopamine like crazy , however , I had no headache today. No angry outbursts either which i think wraps up my journal for today. :blush:
May God help us all in this journey .
Nofap got me like:

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Alright so Day 3:
Not much happened today. The only improvement from yesterday was that I felt increased strenght in my hand , as compare to yesterday. I am more than ever attracted more to real life women , instead of the ones in porn. I’m doing my best to not do too much of the activities that lead to unnatural dopamine release , for example playing too much games and procrastinating. I have gotten a but more angry than usual , maybe it’s just one of those withdrawal effects.
I have however not felt a lot of withdrawal effects up to today. Maybe a few ones like that Headache I had two days ago. But that’s it. I’ve felt more happier than yesterday and I think there are several factors to it , nofap being one of them. I have had no emotional problems today that I couldn’t handle. I did have urges at 5 am today but they were not that strong so I overcame them easily. I hope the coming days will be as good as today. Ameen
Kinda feel like :
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Day 4:
Not noticing a lot of changes today. Most probably what has shown itself is ummm increased desire to look at women. I’ve had a terrible day with porn flashes and fantasizing opportunities. However I did not relapse , I remember that I was getiing urges around 5 : 30 pm and I told the urges to fuck off. I’ve been praying for my journey and I hope I can reach my goal. For now it’s just one day at a time . Ok that’s it for today , and some motivation for us lol :
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ok so Day 5 here. Not much has changed since yesterday. I’ve noticed twi things only. One is that the strenght in my hand has gotten stringer since Day 3 . And the next thing is that while talking to a girl online she and I were having a good time. We did connect over somethings and when I ended the chat and looked at my johnson , it was wet with pre cum :man_facepalming:. I mean like seriously?
Anyways , that’s about it for today. I’ll be back for more tomorrow :blush:

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Day 6:
The only thing I’ve noticed that changed in me is the rock hard morning wood and thenfact that it won’t go down. Another thing is that I feel awesome. I feel so good. I have been feeling good alot. I love it

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Ok so Day 7 :
Day 7 was interesting. The one single best thing that I have noticed today was in the morning I had rock hard morning wood. It went away after quite some time.
Then the next thing I noticed was that I had a lot of energy today. I couldn’t just sit down and study I had tk run. So to burn off that energy I did some exercises. It was fun! I also felt alot good today , maybe it was al placebo but it did feel a lot better today.
My hand strenght has slighly increased and I am getting crazy flashes me having sexual intercourse with various real life women. I have had a crazy amount of fantasies and I’ve had to watcgh cricket to forget about them and so far I’m going strong :relaxed:. I guess time will tell. Untill then :
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Day 8:
Didn’t notice much change. No realistic energy change , morning wood or any other noticable change. Only thing is that I feel better. That’s it. Todsy is a stagnation day. Lets go guys. Let’s win this thing

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Day 0
Ok So I just had a relapse. I was dealing with urges and I was successful for the day in warding them off. Then I fell asleep. As soon as I got up to brush my teeth , thoughts started again to which I could no longer resist. The good thing is that I have only done it once. I’m bow back on the wagon for more success. My next target is 11 days.


So far Porn has had the upper hand in my battles. Now it will change. I’m going to get the truth of porn and I’m going to use it to rally the best defence I can find. And then I’m going to overcome this habit. Wish me luck!

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