I must Calm My self
Few hours until day 19
Woke up early feeling way too horny… I can’t even express my self or what is was feeling down there.
I never knew that No - Fap Memes could calm your urges, its something that tried and honestly it was worth it.
It took me over 1hr and 45 minutes to calm myself, But I think it was worth it.
It’s not like I hadn’t had any urges before, but this one was different…
It was early when I was alone, My devices near me and again just waking up mind usually does not think clearly… But Now that I surfed on this urge I am feeling splendid !!
Cheers
Keep Strong
Edit: This is the link which had them memes:
48 Images For Nofap Motivation (andreian.com)
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So half a day has been done and today has been such a roller coaster, at one point I wanted to cry, I mean why? I don’t understand… the last time I had such a flatline… or is it a flat line… idk
I have no motivation to do anything today… I don’t get frustrated easily but this time I am a confused about what it is …
comparing to the last streak I broke it cause of flatline, I had a sudden surge of emotion and suddenly I was so sad, that I broke it… At that time I had no clue what flatline was … I hadn’t read a lot and I was relatively new for this process but now I think I know a bit more.
But the main question remains, what to do during this time?? do I continue as if nothing weird is happening? or do I rest? should I go out?? or should be in my garden, doing what I love the most?
When does flatline occur?
According to blockerx.net :
- During the first three days
- Once you pass the second-week mark
- End of month one.
- Mid and end of month two.
Net-Net it occurs around every 15/20 days, I have no clue how long it lasts but on average its about 4 days… so should I wait for 10th of April? or should i start living my life !!
I guess the choice is simple and not at all complicated unless i make it to be.
You know what I might have M today if it wasn’t on the other habit.
So I stress ate today!!
it was so long since I ate junk food, that my mind said to me “Fuck it eat what ever you want.”
I am thankful that it wasn’t the other way around !!!
I will figure this one out on my own tho … cause in the end we have to … else the cycle goes on!
Keep strong!
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Day 19 , Evening
There’s nothing more for the day, Only achievement for the day was No-Pmo and for that I am thankful!
Will end the day here…
I have no clue of what to expect from tomorrow
Catch you later !
Date : 08-April-2021, Thursday