[21M] RICHARD21's Journey of Self reflection and Discipline

richard21 · December 20, 2020, 4:29pm

I intended to start this Diary long back, but couldn’t. It’s all because of being a victim of Perfectionism. I postponed it many times, so that i could write a perfect introduction for this diary. I have lately realized that, perfectionism is a BIGGEST TRAP, one can ever fall into and that i need to work on it and become an ACTION TAKER.

GET INTO ACTION, THROW off the BS, AND SEE yourself Progressing forward.

As my Diary’s name implies, my purpose of creating this diary is to reflect daily through the way i accomplish various tasks and how i achieve my daily goals. I identify myself as a Pro procastinator and my dopamine receptors are very much dependent on Social media and YouTube’s Self development stuffs. Though, it has helped me to an extent in learning relationship dynamics, i am still struggling with other aspects of my life, like Studies, time management.

I am still in the reboot phase of PMO, but have seen significant improvements in how i deal with urges and CHASER EFFECT. Currently i am on an ARTIFICIAL STIMULI DETOX, and determined to completely rewire myself from old neural pathways and Porn. Thus, i have decided to make myself accountable to my fellow members in doing few daily activities/tasks/goals.

I would love to receive your support and encouragement throughout this journey of mine.

Ash_Matt · December 20, 2020, 4:40pm

Keep going bro @richard21
I’ve been wondering when you would start a diary, you are a real beast worker

assh · December 20, 2020, 4:44pm

This might help. Keep going brother

richard21 · December 20, 2020, 5:25pm

Day 0 - 20.12.2020

Waking up Early at 5.30 AM

5 Mins Meditation and Anulom vilom
Pranayama

Bible reading and Prayer

Daily Rewire Check-in

Journal Check-in

Breakfast and Lunch On-Time with Fruits

Study Minimum 4 hours

Read 10 pages of a Book

No Social media after 10.30am and before
Completing Studies

Make notes of every INTENTIONAL Youtube
video watched

Random Household chores

Review TO-DO lists before bed time

Go to bed by 11.10 PM

Will update the results, tomorrow

richard21 · December 20, 2020, 5:13pm

@assh That will be really helpful, Thanks brother

richard21 · December 20, 2020, 5:19pm

@Ash_Matt Yeah, im a little bit late to start one. Thanks brother, and keep supporting me in this journey, i will be accountable to you.

And i will check up on your progress too

richard21 · December 22, 2020, 4:19am

Day 1

Waking up Early at 5.30 AM

5 Mins Meditation and Anulom vilom
Pranayama

Bible reading and Prayer

Daily Rewire Check-in (Today’s evening update pending)

Journal check In

Morning phase almost done, getting ready for mid day phase, Need to study and get rid of Social media till my study portion gets completed

richard21 · December 23, 2020, 3:07am

Day 1

Waking up Early at 5.30 AM

5 Mins Meditation and Anulom vilom
Pranayama

Bible reading and Prayer

Daily Rewire Check-in

Journal Check-in

Breakfast and Lunch On-Time with Fruits (Had Lunch a little bit late)

Study Minimum 4 hours (Studied 3 hours)

Read 10 pages of a Book

No Social media after 10.30am and before
Completing Studies (Checked for few mins in-between, need to be stringent in it)

Make notes of every INTENTIONAL Youtube
video watched

Random Household chores

Review TO-DO lists before bed time

Go to bed by 11.10 PM (Slept at 11.25pm)

richard21 · December 23, 2020, 3:19am

On an overall, Yesterday i had a great morning, being mindful and doing breathing exercise etc.

But during studies, i lacked focus and got distracted many times and tempted to check social media for few minutes, need to use initial disciplinary tools like App blacklist and blockers during study sessions and im also thinking of using a Distraction Journal to write my thoughts whenever i get sidetracked while studying, this will help me in staying focused.

Bed time is still a WORK IN PROGRESS, as im still trying various sleep hours, im still deprived of around 2 hrs from my ideal sleep requirement. Thus, i should make some modifications onto it.

My Ratings for the Day - 3.3/5

richard21 · December 26, 2020, 2:55am

Day 2 - 24.12.2020

Waking up Early at 5.30 AM

5 Mins Meditation and Anulom vilom
Pranayama

Bible reading and Prayer

Daily Rewire Check-in

Journal Check-in

Breakfast and Lunch On-Time with Fruits (Lunch became late)

Study Minimum 4 hours

Read 10 pages of a Book

No Social media after 10.30am and before
Completing Studies

Make notes of every INTENTIONAL Youtube
video watched

Random Household chores

Review TO-DO lists before bed time

Go to bed by 11.10 PM (Slept at 12am)

richard21 · December 26, 2020, 3:02am

Day 3 - 25.12.2020

Waking up Early at 5.30 AM (Woke up at 9am)

5 Mins Meditation and Anulom vilom
Pranayama

Bible reading and Prayer

Daily Rewire Check-in

Journal Check-in

Breakfast and Lunch On-Time with Fruits ( Late breakfast)

Study Minimum 4 hours

Read 10 pages of a Book

No Social media after 10.30am and before
Completing Studies

Make notes of every INTENTIONAL Youtube
video watched (Need to remind myself about this rule, while watching a video)

Random Household chores

Review TO-DO lists before bed time

Go to bed by 11.10 PM

ResistTheUrge · December 26, 2020, 3:41am

I feel you 100% man, I’m tired of fooling myself once and for all. Number one for me is to stay consistent, no matter what in life if you are consistent you will open new doors and achieve levels you never attained. I sincerely believe that. I’m tired of distracting myself with poison that is social media, porn, etc which keeps me up at night, takes away from my other aspects of life, and overall gives a feeling like I’m always behind and playing catch up. Sooner or later I’ll burn out even though I persevere. I’m just making life much harder than it needs to be and it’s taking a toll. Much props to you for creating a journal and holding yourself accountable. Set yourself for success but just like you said there needs to be action, and without action there’s no progress and without consistency you will be stuck in a perpetual cycle of false hope and failure. Best wishes to you dude, go get it

richard21 · February 5, 2021, 2:31am

@ResistTheUrge Im still struggling with it, man. I am currently a bit consistent in my sleep cycle and morning routine, but need to put a lot of work on Mid day, that’s where i fall for distractions and procrastination.

I have some tools to help myself with, thinking of keeping a different kind of journal where i measure my productivity and where i go wrong. Need to do a lot of trial and error.

richard21 · February 6, 2021, 12:08am

05/02/2021

1) Wake up at 5.30AM
2) 1 Glass Warm water
3) 5 mins Meditation
4) Anulom vilom Pranayama 15 reps
5) Bible reading and prayer
6) Rewire Check-in
7) Cold shower
8) Helping Mom
9) Eating on time [B L D ]
10) Seeking Nofap and Sexual mastery knowledge
11) Positive affirmations before Studying
12) Study till 2pm
13) Finish one Unfinished Important Work
14) Study after Lunch till Evening
15) Make notes for every purposeful YouTube video
16) Book reading- 15 pages
17) Social Media Detox during Study hours
18) Clean the Room
19) Review nd Update this Before bed
20) Sleep before 11.10PM

richard21 · February 6, 2021, 6:30pm

06/02/2021

1) Wake up at 5.30AM
2) 1 Glass Warm water
3) 5 mins Meditation
4) Anulom vilom Pranayama 15 reps
5) Bible reading and prayer
6) Rewire Check-in
7) Cold shower
8) Helping Mom
9) Eating on time [B L D ]
10) Seeking Nofap and Sexual mastery knowledge
11) Positive affirmations before Studying
12) Study till 2pm
13) Finish one Unfinished Important Work
14) Study after Lunch till Evening
15) Make notes for every purposeful YouTube video
16) Book reading- 15 pages
17) Social Media Detox during Study hours
18) Clean the Room
19) Review nd Update this Before bed
20) Sleep before 11.10PM

richard21 · February 8, 2021, 6:04pm

07/02/2021

1) Wake up at 5.30AM
2) 1 Glass Warm water
3) 5 mins Meditation
4) Anulom vilom Pranayama 15 reps
5) Bible reading and prayer
6) Rewire Check-in
7) Cold shower
8) Helping Mom
9) Eating on time [B L D ]
10) Seeking Nofap and Sexual mastery knowledge
11) Positive affirmations before Studying
12) Study till 2pm
13) Finish one Unfinished Important Work
14) Study after Lunch till Evening
15) Make notes for every purposeful YouTube video
16) Book reading- 15 pages
17) Social Media Detox during Study hours
18) Clean the Room
19) Review nd Update this Before bed
20) Sleep before 11.10PM

richard21 · February 10, 2021, 2:31am

09/02/2021

1) Wake up at 5.30AM
2) 1 Glass Warm water
3) 5 mins Meditation
4) Anulom vilom Pranayama 15 reps
5) Bible reading and prayer
6) Rewire Check-in
7) Cold shower
8) Helping Mom
9) Eating on time [B L D ]
10) Seeking Nofap and Sexual mastery knowledge
11) Positive affirmations before Studying
12) Study till 2pm
13) Finish one Unfinished Important Work
14) Study after Lunch till Evening
15) Make notes for every purposeful YouTube video
16) Book reading- 15 pages
17) Social Media Detox during Study hours
18) Clean the Room
19) Review nd Update this Before bed
20) Sleep before 11.10PM

richard21 · February 10, 2021, 5:52pm

10/02/2021

1) Wake up at 5.30AM
2) 1 Glass Warm water
3) 5 mins Meditation
4) Anulom vilom Pranayama 15 reps
5) Bible reading and prayer
6) Rewire Check-in
7) Cold shower
8) Helping Mom
9) Eating on time [B L D ]
10) Seeking Nofap and Sexual mastery knowledge
11) Positive affirmations before Studying
12) Study till 2pm
13) Finish one Unfinished Important Work
14) Study after Lunch till Evening
15) Make notes for every purposeful YouTube video
16) Book reading- 15 pages
17) Social Media Detox during Study hours
18) Clean the Room
19) Review nd Update this Before bed
20) Sleep before 11.10PM

richard21 · February 10, 2021, 6:07pm

My Efforts for Self improvement for today

Started washing hands and feet before sleep for improving sleep quality
Have set up Social Media detox during study hours from morning to evening, in order to be free from distractions

Key takeaways from today

Sleep duration needed to be increased
Take actions in circumstances, when you don’t “feel it”. Its your mind playing tricks on you.
Set your Priorities right and work on it, before u attempt the rest.

richard21 · February 13, 2021, 6:26pm

13/02/2021

1) Wake up at 5.30AM
2) 1 Glass Warm water
3) 5 mins Meditation
4) Anulom vilom Pranayama 15 reps
5) Bible reading and prayer
6) Rewire Check-in
7) Cold shower
8) Helping Mom
9) Eating on time [B L D ]
10) Seeking Nofap and Sexual mastery knowledge
11) Positive affirmations before Studying
12) Study till 2pm
13) Finish one Unfinished Important Work
14) Study after Lunch till Evening
15) Make notes for every purposeful YouTube video
16) Book reading - 10 pages
17) Social Media Detox during Study hours
18) Clean the Room
19) Review nd Update this Before bed
20) Sleep before 11.10PM