Journal
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getting up at 6am
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restoring Foot arch exercise (120)
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warm water on empty stomach
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pullups (5)
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back exercises (40)
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cold shower
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cleaned up my room in the evening
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Meditation (5min)
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Stretching for better back posture (1 set)
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stretching by touching toes (1min) I found a trick, only stretch until resistance, then hold 15s, then stretch further, result: almost no pain, previously intense pain
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stretching neck (1min)
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auto-suggestion in the morning and in the evening
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big breakfast
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went to bed at 9pm
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drinking a lot of water at 6pm
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shutting off all screens at 7:30pm
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prepped meal for the next day
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shoulder raises
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shrugs (40 reps @ 15kg)
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stretching back (30s)
Body trainsformation commitment (workout 6d/week): (shoulders today)
To do today
I didnt start the handles yesterday, I have to do this today and complete at least one stand for the customer
Tip of the day
Tips for escaping porn:
You have to make your attitude that life without porn is normal. That its ordinary.
Porn is not normal, not a natural thing to do. If you engage in porn, you are an outlaw and weird, if you don’t do porn you live a normal life. With this attitude the “pull” is eliminated.
If you keep reaching for the “magnificient life after porn” you are creating a tension and this tension will lead you to relapse. All tension is bad for escaping. Fear and so on too. The real escape is getting out without stretching an emotional bow and arrow (which at some point will snap back and lead to relapse).
You must escape by being sure of the truth that porn is empty, an illusion, a burden, uninteresting and not worth remembering. If you engrain this truth into your subconscious every day, keep focussed on a worthwhile task and don’t suffer meaninglessness in your life (the main reason I was trapped was my meaningless life) you will be free.
What will happen? Nothing special. Just like a child doesn’t realize it has grown but gets greeted with “oh you have grown so much” when it visits it’s grandparents, your growth after nofap also remains more or less hidden from you (despite being very much real and detectable by comparing your recent achievements with your former self`s achievements). So you shouldn’t focus on finding benefits because you will see them as " surplus".
If you stop because you want to get benefits, you won’t stop for good because your real problem ( your illusion-lie of “missing out on something” by quitting porn) isn’t fixed, you still think you would lose something and you try to endure it to get the benefits. (You’re missing out on nothing).
This is not sustainable and after a lot of fighting you will (unwarrantedly) go back to useless, empty, annoying porn. What an annoying trap! It’s not necessary!
You are, in essence like a suffocating person who is convinced that breathing is bad. If you could only lose the illusion, you would be free, your suffering is self imposed and can be changed by accepting this now much repeated fact:
Porn is a waste of time. It adds nothing and it is irrelevant. There is nothing to it, it evokes no emotion. It’s empty, useless and uninteresting. It’s a distraction.
The people / impulses that are telling you you’re missing out on something are either addicted and trapped in the illusion themselves or actively trying to hurt you. You have the power not to get caught up in such illusions because you can discern clearly. You can see the lie and avoid it, you can see that some people are mentally infected by mind viruses like pmo and you protect yourself from them. Focus on your own life and find something you would like to achieve and you can achieve it. Go after it and forget about the weak person you used to be.