[21 M] Brightwarrior's journey

It day 19 for me and I am currently going through the phase of low motivation. I don’t feel like doing anything. This has happened before in my previous streak. I call it the pit zone. Every nofappers goes through this pit once or twice or even more during their streak. This includes low libido, low energy, low interest in work/study, more sleepiness etc. It is really important to stay on alert and not get the gaurd down as urges might come anytime. This “pit zone” happens due to change in harmonal levels in the body due to long time of nofap, which is good.

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2nd day into the pit. I have exam tomorrow but feeling less motivated to study. No urges, but don’t wanna do anything. I have to get through this

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Just had a wet dream on day 20. Second one after 9 days. Very little discharge. Moving on.
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I like your Relapse post very much. I learned a lesson from it.
As an addict we cant become comfortable with porn & think for a second that we will not relapse by simple erotic pics or videos.

As you described it perfectly. It starts to add up & adds fuel to fire. Very good diary … keep up with me… together we shall rise again.

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21 days achieved again!!

I am having a feeling of self-development and accomplishment. But I know this is when I need to be stronger and more alert than ever. Thank you god and this community for making me realize that I too have the strength.
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Lately I have been having these unconscious sexual dreams and they feel so realistic it almost feels like a relapse. I remember in one of my dreams, I was watching porn on my phone, in the same place where I was sleeping in reality, in the same position I was sleeping, and after fapping in the dream, I opened rewire app(in my dream) and reseted my counter. I was so scared by this that I woke up, panting. I thought that I actually did that, it felt so real!! I had to open the app to confirm that it was just a dream, not in reality. I have been having these kind of dreams lately and I know from my previous streak that this happens because of the harmonal level shifts in the brain. I know how much my brain wants to taste that sweet Dopamine spike. But no, I have to be stronger than ever. I can’t just give into to my desire and urges. There is a beautiful qoute I read “Desires makes slaves out of kings and paitence, kings out of slaves”. So that is what I will do, conquer my urges and desires as I want to be the king of my own destiny.

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I had also the same dreams. The way you described it, mine dream was also like that. These dreams are realy scary…
Thank god it was only a dream…

Dream world is the biggest mystery of human world. Maybe someday i would be able to know about it… i want to realy know wtf is going in our head when we are sleeping & dreaming.

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I have done it again! No, not pmo, my 30 days fapfree!!

I am lovin it. Really I feel this surge of energy flowing through me. I feel I can achieve whatever I want. But this is the moment when I have to be control. I cannot let my victory get over my head. I have to be more humble and start working towards my self-development in life. Doing 30 days will not change my attitude like it did in my previous streak. I will pay more attention as if I fall, it will be more painful then before.

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Had a Nightfall today. I had a dream that I am masturbating and my dick has become huge, funny. But after the wet dream, suddenly woke up to find out it was just a dream. Not a loads of semen lost, only few. This is 3rd Nightfall. Having Strong urges today, but I will not fap. I will pull through. I have so many great groups to support me.
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50 day complete!!!

This would not have been possible without the help and support of this group. It is only because I joined this app again and joined some other accountability groups that gave me the ultimate motivation to keep going forward and never look down. Thank you all!!

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2 months without fapping again. Now I am getting closer to my previous highest streak and I am very well aware of what made me relapse that time. I will not commit that mistake again. I did fumble a little bit, but thankfully I regained balance. Now I have to cross my best streak. I AM READY!!!

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Today I surpassed my previous streak. I am very happy. But with this I am a little bit worried too. This is the first time I have come this far. I have a lot to explore yet. One of the things many nofappers who have faced around this streak is that urges for getting laid is on peak. Same is happening with me. I don’t wanna watch porn or fap, but I crave for the real deal. I know one cannot force these things but now there is a new devil. Good thing is, I have good companions with their wise counsel. With their help, I am sure I will move past this phase too. I will be more careful than before and not to fall for any traps by pmo. I can and I will reach 90 and beyond.

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Yesterday night had a wet dream. I felt it. It was strong. I felt the dopamine Rush in my brain. It felt so wonderful but it should not be practiced intentionally. Body knows what best for it. Let it heal itself. Best thing was, no semen came out. Only some watery stuff. But it was loads. But not dwelling on that as it is not my fault. Moving on with life. #78-days
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Quite sometime you didn’t write.
May I know your code

I will write tommorow as it is a special day.

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What’s your sharing code?

My share code is af92095

@aapoorv75 Congratulations :confetti_ball: bro, you will reach 90 days streak in a few hours :tada::tada:.
I hope that you keep this spirit and stay strong forever :muscle: :top:.

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Today is the day of reflection. Today, I have successfully accomplished 3 months (90 days) of noPMO, hard mode. I take this time to thank all of those people who helped me reach this day, to all those groups where I am accountable. This journey of 3 months has its ups and downs. I will not say it was easy, coz it was not. I had times when my mind was constantly bombarded with thoughts of peeking, but I prevailed. Then, sometimes later in my journey, I had unnecessary cravings of getting into a sexual relationship, which will obviously hinder my reboot process. Hell, I even joined Tinder once. But because of my companions advice, I deleted it and yet again, I prevailed. I had as many as 4-5 wet dreams in the whole journey, but that’s perfectly normal, no need to worry about it.
See, nofap journey is not just fighting this addiction, but to simultaneously find our true self, because when we remove mastrubation from our lives, we start to confront other problems that are there in our lives and then fix them. That is what a successful journey means, and that is what I have and continue to do so.
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Congratulations brother :tada:
You are a bright warrior in true sense👍Keep up the spirit👊

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