How did the book, Giant within go? sounds interesting.
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Currently reading, the concepts that are mentioned are easy to use and it tells us that we have this enormous amount of energy that we can summon anytime, by using some basic rules. Currently reading on that.
Just had a Wet Dream on Day 11.
It’s a proof that I am on the correct path and I don’t need to worry about it as it is just a normal rewiring stage.
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Hi aaporva75, I am on day 8 of nofap. Like you I was exposed to pornography very early at the age of 13. Back then I used to watch it occasionally like once a month or so, but there was no urge just shear curiosity whenever i was at cyber cafe( That Cafe had a dedicated folder with million of clips category wise) . But when i bought a smartphone(at the age of 20), porn became very accessible. I never thought i would become addicted to it. But, here i am struggling with this addiction. The longest streak i ever had was 30 days then 24 days then 15 days twice then 9 days. And now i am on 8th day. I had two consecutive wet-dreams on 7th day and 8th day. I can notice a dark circle below my eyes. I am a Muslim and the only reason for me not to indulge in it is fear of Allah. Thats a bit of background.
Brother I know how tough a phase it would have been for you when you relapsed after 50 something days. I have been never there. But I know how I felt when I relapsed after 30 days. The amount of pain is unbearable and one finds respite in just one thing. Now when you are again in double digit figure I would like to congratulate you for this achievement. People like you tell us that there is light at the end of tunnel which appears too dark. Thank you for the information which you have shared. And I am not using the app these days. If I can get a version of app which doesn’t allow surfing on youtube I will start using the app once again.
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Today I again mark upon two weeks (14days) clean from this addiction. It feels good. After a rough October, in which I relapsed about 20 times, I am again on the path of glory. It has not been easy. Sometimes days felt like weeks. But due to several nofap groups I am enrolled in and this community, I pulled through. Now, Eying for that 30day mark.
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It day 19 for me and I am currently going through the phase of low motivation. I don’t feel like doing anything. This has happened before in my previous streak. I call it the pit zone. Every nofappers goes through this pit once or twice or even more during their streak. This includes low libido, low energy, low interest in work/study, more sleepiness etc. It is really important to stay on alert and not get the gaurd down as urges might come anytime. This “pit zone” happens due to change in harmonal levels in the body due to long time of nofap, which is good.
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2nd day into the pit. I have exam tomorrow but feeling less motivated to study. No urges, but don’t wanna do anything. I have to get through this
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Just had a wet dream on day 20. Second one after 9 days. Very little discharge. Moving on.
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I like your Relapse post very much. I learned a lesson from it.
As an addict we cant become comfortable with ■■■■ & think for a second that we will not relapse by simple erotic pics or videos.
As you described it perfectly. It starts to add up & adds fuel to fire. Very good diary … keep up with me… together we shall rise again.
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21 days achieved again!!
I am having a feeling of self-development and accomplishment. But I know this is when I need to be stronger and more alert than ever. Thank you god and this community for making me realize that I too have the strength.
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Lately I have been having these unconscious sexual dreams and they feel so realistic it almost feels like a relapse. I remember in one of my dreams, I was watching porn on my phone, in the same place where I was sleeping in reality, in the same position I was sleeping, and after fapping in the dream, I opened rewire app(in my dream) and reseted my counter. I was so scared by this that I woke up, panting. I thought that I actually did that, it felt so real!! I had to open the app to confirm that it was just a dream, not in reality. I have been having these kind of dreams lately and I know from my previous streak that this happens because of the harmonal level shifts in the brain. I know how much my brain wants to taste that sweet Dopamine spike. But no, I have to be stronger than ever. I can’t just give into to my desire and urges. There is a beautiful qoute I read “Desires makes slaves out of kings and paitence, kings out of slaves”. So that is what I will do, conquer my urges and desires as I want to be the king of my own destiny.
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I had also the same dreams. The way you described it, mine dream was also like that. These dreams are realy scary…
Thank god it was only a dream…
Dream world is the biggest mystery of human world. Maybe someday i would be able to know about it… i want to realy know wtf is going in our head when we are sleeping & dreaming.
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I have done it again! No, not pmo, my 30 days fapfree!!
I am lovin it. Really I feel this surge of energy flowing through me. I feel I can achieve whatever I want. But this is the moment when I have to be control. I cannot let my victory get over my head. I have to be more humble and start working towards my self-development in life. Doing 30 days will not change my attitude like it did in my previous streak. I will pay more attention as if I fall, it will be more painful then before.
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Had a Nightfall today. I had a dream that I am masturbating and my dick has become huge, funny. But after the wet dream, suddenly woke up to find out it was just a dream. Not a loads of semen lost, only few. This is 3rd Nightfall. Having Strong urges today, but I will not fap. I will pull through. I have so many great groups to support me.
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50 day complete!!!
This would not have been possible without the help and support of this group. It is only because I joined this app again and joined some other accountability groups that gave me the ultimate motivation to keep going forward and never look down. Thank you all!!
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2 months without fapping again. Now I am getting closer to my previous highest streak and I am very well aware of what made me relapse that time. I will not commit that mistake again. I did fumble a little bit, but thankfully I regained balance. Now I have to cross my best streak. I AM READY!!!
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Today I surpassed my previous streak. I am very happy. But with this I am a little bit worried too. This is the first time I have come this far. I have a lot to explore yet. One of the things many nofappers who have faced around this streak is that urges for getting laid is on peak. Same is happening with me. I don’t wanna watch porn or fap, but I crave for the real deal. I know one cannot force these things but now there is a new devil. Good thing is, I have good companions with their wise counsel. With their help, I am sure I will move past this phase too. I will be more careful than before and not to fall for any traps by pmo. I can and I will reach 90 and beyond.
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Yesterday night had a wet dream. I felt it. It was strong. I felt the dopamine Rush in my brain. It felt so wonderful but it should not be practiced intentionally. Body knows what best for it. Let it heal itself. Best thing was, no semen came out. Only some watery stuff. But it was loads. But not dwelling on that as it is not my fault. Moving on with life. #78-days
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Quite sometime you didn’t write.
May I know your code
I will write tommorow as it is a special day.
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