As I feared before, I had a wet dream while taking a nap in the afternoon. I had about the same dream and just after the night fall, I woke up a and came here to log. But it’s ok, it’s only my 3 night fall after nofap. It means rewiring is happening.
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Three wet dreams so far
1st wd:- day 25
2nd wd:- day 40
3rd wd:- day 53
I am currently dealing with high urges. It’s day 54 today, but I have urges like I had on day 4. I don’t know if I can hold on. Let’s hope I get through this.
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In the afternoon, I did some 7 min stress relief meditation which really worked. It was from the app “Deep meditation”. After that, I felt much better and relaxed.
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Today 2 month of nofap journey is accomplished. Now, I have learnt that masturbation is a plague and should be avoided at any cost. Now, I don’t think you need any advice or motivation, you already all those things, YOU know what to do.
#nofapforlife
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I have come to the realization that after 2 months of nofap, I can handle my urges and will never fap, even if the urges are strong. But, now I have to learn how to handle them without the help of this app. So, now I will only return to this app, 40 days from today i.e. 2 Nov 2018 and share my experience of those 40 days of nofap and no rewire companion help, what happens and what to expect. So, see you in 40 days. Peace out!
#nofapforever
After exactly 40 days, I have returned to this page and I read all my last post and I feel so stupid that I made the wrong decision of leaving this app after 2 months of nofap. So here I am, after 40 days of leaving this page and will write my journey of these past 40 days.
After I stopped using this app, I became very careless. I started watching revealing videos on YouTube, started looking for hot pics of super models, explored explicit Facebook memes. Basically I thought that nothing can make me fap, which was my biggest mistake. I made myself vulnerable to urges, inviting them to attack me. Shortly after that, I had a professional setback. It made me depressed. I was heartbroken and as I deleted the app, so had no one to share my experience. I had no accountability. So I did what a man does in pain. I decided to numb my pain with watching porn. This was the final nail in the coffin. Once I started watching, I couldn’t control myself. I had a momentary feeling of heaven. I unknowingly started fapping. And boy it felt like heaven. The ejaculation sent me to seventh sky. But soon after that, when I saw what I had done, I came back to reality. I realized what did I just do. Did I just threw my streak of 66 days away, just like that. I was in deep guilt and more pain than previously. My hands were shivering, my voice trembled, it felt like I lost all my energy at once. I literally started crying. At that moment I realized, I had lost more than I had before, just for the sake of instant gratification. But it didn’t end there. After that, it became more difficult than before to even get past a week of nofap. I was again in the strongholds of PMO. The monster tightens its grip everytime you relapse. So, after 1 month of struggling, here I am, back to my senses and ready to go nofap forever. I will try and never leave this app as the community here is the reason I had such a long streak in the first place.
#NoNutNovember
#NoFapForever
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Today I marked 1 week fapfree again after a long time. Feels good to be back on the right track but the journey is far from over. I have lot to achieve and give back to my Loved ones and this society. I am currently reading a book by best selling author Tony Robins called “Awaken the gaint within”. It’s a great book so far and I definitely plan to implement the ideas and techniques he conveys through the book.
#nofapdiaries
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One of the best techniques I have discovered after doing a lot of trial and errors about how to handle severe, headache bringing urges, is to just sleepover it. And I mean literally sleep right at the moment. I have found that sleep really calms the nerves down and help bring the blood pressure, that increases in brain, down to normal. It might not be feasible, as you cannot just drop dead whenever and wherever, but still, I mostly have severe urges only when I’m back from work in my room. So remember, if having urges that might take you downtown, just consider sleeping it off!!
#nofap #justsleepitoff
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Joined the Knighthood again!! Happy to be back on double figures. Now nofap seems doable. No heavy urges recently. Just very minor urges, handleable. Remember, first week seems the longest. After that, you can start seeing the light.
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How did the book, Giant within go? sounds interesting.
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Currently reading, the concepts that are mentioned are easy to use and it tells us that we have this enormous amount of energy that we can summon anytime, by using some basic rules. Currently reading on that.
Just had a Wet Dream on Day 11.
It’s a proof that I am on the correct path and I don’t need to worry about it as it is just a normal rewiring stage.
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Hi aaporva75, I am on day 8 of nofap. Like you I was exposed to pornography very early at the age of 13. Back then I used to watch it occasionally like once a month or so, but there was no urge just shear curiosity whenever i was at cyber cafe( That Cafe had a dedicated folder with million of clips category wise) . But when i bought a smartphone(at the age of 20), porn became very accessible. I never thought i would become addicted to it. But, here i am struggling with this addiction. The longest streak i ever had was 30 days then 24 days then 15 days twice then 9 days. And now i am on 8th day. I had two consecutive wet-dreams on 7th day and 8th day. I can notice a dark circle below my eyes. I am a Muslim and the only reason for me not to indulge in it is fear of Allah. Thats a bit of background.
Brother I know how tough a phase it would have been for you when you relapsed after 50 something days. I have been never there. But I know how I felt when I relapsed after 30 days. The amount of pain is unbearable and one finds respite in just one thing. Now when you are again in double digit figure I would like to congratulate you for this achievement. People like you tell us that there is light at the end of tunnel which appears too dark. Thank you for the information which you have shared. And I am not using the app these days. If I can get a version of app which doesn’t allow surfing on youtube I will start using the app once again.
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Today I again mark upon two weeks (14days) clean from this addiction. It feels good. After a rough October, in which I relapsed about 20 times, I am again on the path of glory. It has not been easy. Sometimes days felt like weeks. But due to several nofap groups I am enrolled in and this community, I pulled through. Now, Eying for that 30day mark.
#nofapdiares
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It day 19 for me and I am currently going through the phase of low motivation. I don’t feel like doing anything. This has happened before in my previous streak. I call it the pit zone. Every nofappers goes through this pit once or twice or even more during their streak. This includes low libido, low energy, low interest in work/study, more sleepiness etc. It is really important to stay on alert and not get the gaurd down as urges might come anytime. This “pit zone” happens due to change in harmonal levels in the body due to long time of nofap, which is good.
#nofapdiaries
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2nd day into the pit. I have exam tomorrow but feeling less motivated to study. No urges, but don’t wanna do anything. I have to get through this
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Just had a wet dream on day 20. Second one after 9 days. Very little discharge. Moving on.
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I like your Relapse post very much. I learned a lesson from it.
As an addict we cant become comfortable with ■■■■ & think for a second that we will not relapse by simple erotic pics or videos.
As you described it perfectly. It starts to add up & adds fuel to fire. Very good diary … keep up with me… together we shall rise again.
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21 days achieved again!!
I am having a feeling of self-development and accomplishment. But I know this is when I need to be stronger and more alert than ever. Thank you god and this community for making me realize that I too have the strength.
#nofapdairies
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