We still needs a bit more installing and fabrication etc but all the things we need for that are there lol. Something that I’m looking forward to later. Tysm for asking man
Thank you so so much for your advice of looking forward to 90 days. I’ll make use of it :). I remind myself often that I’m very early on in the process of healing in the grand scheme of things. Still so grateful as I have been trapped for years. I shall direct all this energy into great things for sure man ty for urging me on . Honestly I’m grateful for the pain of PMO in the long run because recovery has formed me into a better character.
Emotion Meter Chart Level 1-4: (Feeling confident and energized. The journey is going well.) Level 5: (Average day. Some temptation, but staying strong.) Level 6-8: (Struggling with urges and distractions. It’s a tough day.) Level 9-10: (Feeling low and defeated. The urge is overwhelming, but persistence is key.)
𝗠𝗼𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝗮𝗹 𝗤𝘂𝗼𝘁𝗲
John 11:25-26 (KJV) Jesus said unto her, I am the resurrection, and the life: he that believeth in me, though he were dead, yet shall he live:
And whosoever liveth and believeth in me shall never die. Believest thou this?
Made it through. Feeling peaceful and excited for my workout now. Rewire happened to open on my phone and I knew then what I had to do. Every moment is a decision. I can’t forget that. The thought of you guys helped a lot. It’s just a choice between what you want ,and pain, every time.
Emotion Meter Chart Level 1-4: (Feeling confident and energized. The journey is going well.) Level 5: (Average day. Some temptation, but staying strong.) Level 6-8: (Struggling with urges and distractions. It’s a tough day.) Level 9-10: (Feeling low and defeated. The urge is overwhelming, but persistence is key.)
𝗠𝗼𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝗮𝗹 𝗤𝘂𝗼𝘁𝗲
James 5:16 (KJV) Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.
Emotion Meter Chart Level 1-4: (Feeling confident and energized. The journey is going well.) Level 5: (Average day. Some temptation, but staying strong.) Level 6-8: (Struggling with urges and distractions. It’s a tough day.) Level 9-10: (Feeling low and defeated. The urge is overwhelming, but persistence is key.)
𝗠𝗼𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝗮𝗹 𝗤𝘂𝗼𝘁𝗲
Romans 6:10-11 (KJV) For in that he died, he died unto sin once: but in that he liveth, he liveth unto God.
Likewise reckon ye also yourselves to be dead indeed unto sin, but alive unto God through Jesus Christ our Lord.
Thank you so, so much my friend. Glad to see you doing well too dude. Day 71 now and I just had a great time outdoors for hours. With wildlife and trees and great views. All amazing and I know for a fact that I wouldn’t have had the opportunity to enjoy that had I relapsed yesterday or at any point.
Thank you for lifting my up man. Honestly it helps me so much and those good days are already here. They’re just gonna get better for my mind
Day 71, checking in. I’ve had the most amazing day lol. So much fun being outside for a couple of hours and playing with the farm animals near me and listening to the incredible birdsong. Woodpeckers I think but there were so many different sounds. Good cycle rides too and I’m so grateful for my grandad who has given me some amazing music that he and his teacher and friends wrote long ago for me to play. Can’t wait.
Yesterday’s workout was awesome. Clean sets and progress is good. I’ve found a way to train false grip that works well for me (just high rep bodyweight rows - as many as you can do, with a false grip). Looking forward to the workout tomorrow very much.
I do need to be more focused on my schoolwork. Looking forward to studying this evening and tomorrow too.
Thank you so so much you guys for making these last few days brilliant for me. And so many of the days before that keep strong bros .
Oh my gosh. Oh my goodness I can’t believe it I relapsed. I am literally trembling. I feel so rotten, right to my very core. The last 71 days have genuinely been the best 71 days I have experienced within the last few years. I am so, so very sorry for letting you incredible people down, and for letting myself down and those around me.
It’s like a wound so close to healing has been torn through and open by a barbed spear or serrated edge. I feel like I’m bleeding. Physically bleeding.
No choice but to carry on. To put a tourniquet above that wound so that even when it demands my attention it won’t cause trouble. It’s only now that I notice how I haven’t been trying as I should as I haven’t been reflecting every day. Every day I must reflect and try 100% to focus in school. I get my assignments done yes, but I don’t do double like I am aiming to, and like what is definitely possible. Not even close. I’m proud of myself outside of that though.
Never. Again. I know what victory tastes like. I know what it feels like. This is the life I want. I’m not turning back, ever. I’ll continue to update you guys here every day, I will check in as I have been doing, every single day, right the way through. I must be diligent.
@Sampanyo Thanks for reminding us, how easy and fast one can stumble. We’ve all been there, just continue as If nothing happened. This relapse hast only summarized your biggest streak ever. From now on, you start fresh from that new level going even higher
Come back stronger this time @Sampanyo. You may have lost 71 days but your record is still with me. Think positive and brush yourself off do the best that you can the next time. I hope that you rise above this record and more. Be strong brother and don’t give up hope. You got this!
Remember what matters most is that you bounce back and not let the disappointment weigh you down. A healthy amount of frustration is ok: it’s that feeling you must sit with when you work through discovering what didn’t work and figuring out what’ll work better. We’re all experimenting with ways to end this addiction (or any addiction) and there’s no rule book. So don’t beat yourself up for falling for a day: celebrate the much more numerous days where discipline was built. Pick up from where you left the moment before the relapse: you are in a very different place than someone who has been in PMO for the last 3 months and is just beginning.
. Honestly I’m grateful for the pain of PMO in the long run because recovery has formed me into a better character.
(Feeling confident and energized. The journey is going well.)
(Struggling with urges and distractions. It’s a tough day.)
(Feeling low and defeated. The urge is overwhelming, but persistence is key.)
𝗠𝗼𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝗮𝗹 𝗤𝘂𝗼𝘁𝗲
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