I’m 20 years old male student from Europe suffering from PMO addiction since I was maybe 12 or 13 years old. I came across this forum by accident and thought it would be a good idea to share my experiences with all of you. My addiction is getting worse and worse, and it seems that I can not stop it. I’m always trying very hard not to relapse but I always end up doing it anyway. I want to try new methods so I will be writing a diary here in this forum. I made a commitment that I would post here everyday, tell something about my day and maybe this will help me to fight the urges back. My best streak was 90+ days but it was like 3-4 years ago, and now I usually last for 30ish days but at this period I fall every week (like every 5-7 days) so it somewhy getting worse and I really want to change it before it is too late. I really want to feel responsible for this diary and responsible to all of you guys who read this, so please, as many as you can, write something here, so I know I’m not just writing this for myself.
By the way guys, maybe some of you folks have some really cool, creative methods how to fight back urges or stop watching P? I have some ideas in my mind: I’m gonna place wifi cameras in my flat everywhere (except bathroom) and record every step I make, then I’m gonna give access to the cameras for my mother or some friends but I didn’t make up a story yet what I would tell them why I would do that, so that’s a problem I have to figure out, but this way I won’t be able to PMO ever again because I will always feel watched and I don’t PMO anywhere else ever so this may just work. Also I’m thinking of a creative way for wiring the cameras up in case I would try to remove them. Maybe some of you guys made something like this, or have some other creative methods how to fight this addiction?