My friend sent me a whatsapp sticker and it was a n*de. I deleted it at once but it remained in my mind and I started to think about it,
2 hours later I opened up my mobile, searched and watched a semi-n^de pic but got back to my senses just in time.
I am not counting it as a relapse as I stopped right after seeing one pic and premature ejaculation started after 30 minutes of watching that pic, it was not that much although.
But now I have deleted the browser too, and have nothing to connect to the Web. So whatsapp is the only application that has the potential to lead to a relapse, that too only in the case if someone sends me something, or I search for a gif, but I can’t uninstall whatsapp, but there is only 1% chance of me relapsing through whatsapp.
I got strong urges as soon as I woke up, although I had my mobile in front of me, I didn’t even touched it as I knew I (thankfully) can’t access anything on it.
The decision of deleting the browser was a good one, if there was any browser on my mobile, I wouldn’t have been able to control the urges.
My Man, do you see it?
Okay, that was the last time! Now you hear my words carefully, you’ve done it for the last time. Tomorrow begins 2022, you and I are going to be clean throughout the whole year, until one of us relapses. You got that? If I relapse only then you are allowed to relapse and vice-versa. I’m tired of trying, we’re tired. Let’s do this once and for all. WE HAVE TO BE THE LAST MEN STANDING!
This time I was overconfident that there is nothing in my mobile through which I can relapse, my mind tricked me that there is still one day remaining in 2022, so why not do it for one last time, I opened playstore, installed a video player and relapsed, I watched p^rn after a very long time, before this, I resetted the streak because of m^sturbation or peeking a little bit at semi-n^des, but after 200 days I watched p^rn, and it cleared one big misinderstanding for me, p^rn is disgusting, but it does not feel disgusting, rather it feels pleasurable, thats why people get into it, but the price to watch porn is very heavy, the after-effects are disgusting, the feeling of emptiness, regret,and guilt after c^mming is the disgusting part, but thankfully this part is disgusting, if it was not, nobody would have even tried to stop, its simple, people feel broken and bad after c^mming, and afterwards do the same thing again, this proves that this is an addiction.
Anyways, after I relapsed, I started to chat with one of my friends about NoFap to get some motivation because right now my Self Control is zero, I need some motivation to get back to track, it was night time, we had some very good conversation, afterwards, I went to sleep, but couldn’t, so I started to think about NoFap and that I would not fap in 2022, but all of a sudden I got an urge, I didn’t give it a second thought, opened my mobile, installed that video player again and relapsed 1 hour after the previous one😓.
Now I have taken a bath and am all clean, so I hope I stay clean for 2022. Best of luck to everyone.
Got some urges but I didn’t fall for them, got vaccinated today, my arm is paining so I didn’t workout today, I had to play cricket tomorrow but right now I am unsure if I’ll be unable to go tomorrow or not.
Wrote the best poetry of my life today😇
I might continue it as a hobby as I just discovered that I am really good at it🙃
It started when I was trolling one of my friends, I wrote some poetry containing some of his "sayings" he didn’t mind it and said that you are really good in this thing, thats when I got passionate and began to troll him more oftenly using poetry:grin: and he also enjoyed it. This is the first time that I have wrote a serious poetry.
Happy New Year in Advance.
I hope everyone achieves what he wants in this year…
Got fever due to vaccine🙄. Got some urges but the motivation of the 2022 Last Man Standing Challenge were enough to wipe them out😏, thankfully I have found some motivation that may put me back to track, also as I had fever and headache so I didn’t even touch my mobile for most of the time, just checked some msgs and thats it. Also I had to go to play cricket, my friends were waiting for me in the morning but I turned them off at the last moment😗.
Woke up at 12:30😑 did absolutely nothing the whole day😑 at night installed an app to edit some photos but it had triggering ads, I instantly watched away everytime.
First workout of 2022, I got my abs reshaped to an extent as I noticed them today in the mirror (I had 6 packs before but because of lockdown I got a flat belly:expressionless:), my arm is not aching any more( it wasis aching due to vaccine) so I will shift my focus to arms from tomorrow, they are thinner than a toothpick:neutral_face:
Couldn’t upload yesterday because of some reason.
Got some urges but I have a motivation to tackle them😊. In the evening, went to a restaurant near my friend’s house, he was giving us a treat for his birthday, we were three people, ate a grill burger and some fries from that place. Then one of my friends wanted to eat shawarma, we gave the order and the host said that we should eat ice cream, there is a very nice ice cream place very near, although we had bikes, but he said that we should walk to that place as it is walking distance from here. When we were half the way there, he told us that it is at the end of the main road😑. We had no choice but to go there because we were already halfway there. At last we reached the spot. The ice cream was really worth the walk😏 it was a cone ice cream with vanilla ice cream on it dipped in chocolate syrup. The quality was so good even the waffle was tasty😂. But now we had to walk all the way back to the first restaurant😑. We reached there while eating the ice cream and walking, and my friend’s shawarma(which we ordered and said that pack it, we will take it once we come back, thinking that it will be hot when we come back) was as cold as the ice cream😂.
At night I did some workout
Even though it was raining today, too, and it was very cold, I ate two icecreams at a time😑.
From last two or three months I have been eating ice cream a lot, two months ago it was atleast one icecream a day, then I wanted to control it, but now again it is atleast 1 ice cream in 2 days, as soon as I hear the icecream mans sound()
I get up and buy one, so I think i’ll have to add one more thing to my daily goals😂,
No Ice Cream
Most of the time I literally have earphones on my ears when he passes but still I hear the sound
Kuch khaas muhabbat hai uss sai😂
Maybe I should ask him to lower his sound🙂
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I used to run after the cotton candy guy when I was a child, he still passes from our neighborhood with a ring I still feel like running after him sometimes
Workout NoSocialMedia CaloriesGoal No IceCream:slightly_smiling_face:
The icecream guy didn’t come today😂
It was actually first day of school after winter vacations but I didn’t go🙂. It rained the whole day, so I was at home doing childish things.
I installed some shooting game after a long time so the shooter inside me woke up and I picked up the rubber band powered icecream stick made rifle that I made about one year ago😑. I renewed it to some extent, made some targets and then spent so much time shooting at them, well my aim is not that bad, but the fault was in the gun so I missed 40%, about two years ago I used to make rubber band power paper rifles(one was the size of an actual rifle but it used two rubberband instead of one) which were very accurate, I shooted at pencils and 9 out of 10 times it hit the target🙂. But today I found out that I have to do more practice with this one to improve my accuracy😑
Workout
he didn’t mind it and said that you are really good in this thing, thats when I got passionate and began to troll him more oftenly using poetry:grin: and he also enjoyed it. This is the first time that I have wrote a serious poetry.
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