[17 M] Rezboy247 "Hard Mode" journal

That sounds interesting @comingclean , I’ll be sure to try this tomorrow. Thanks!

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Keep going man. You are on the right track
Yes this Journey is filled with pain, sorrow etc.
Cry if you want. Do whatever you want. Crying, breaking things, killing, destroying all things are manly
But fapping. It is not even for boys. It is for poor, savage animals.
Don’t go for it.
Your mood will become normal. Iam taking from my experience. You have a purpose man. I’ll tell you, you’ll feel satisfied and happy when you work hard for your purpose.

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I’ll do anything but fap. I’ll never go back to my old ways.

Thanks man, I’m hoping to find my purpose throughout my no fap journey.


If you aren’t doing anything you’re sabotaging yourself. Even if you watch productivity or self improvement videos it doesn’t make you less of an addict you’re still consuming dopamine, heres why?
Our brain releases dopamine bit only in pleasure but also in anticipation of pleasure, example you sirf the internet hoping any dirty ad will pop up, you watch a lot of self improvement but doesnt do anything that releases dopamine, whenever you get dopamine without working very hard is a bad dopamine, it’ll get you hooked the rate will depend on the activity for example gaming gets you hooked quickly whereas sugar takes some time and it’s not as addictive as gaming.
So avoid instant gratification activities it’ll only make you less potential and sabotage your growth


Day 4
July 14, 2020

Today I woke up feeling great. It’s been awhile since that has happened. I think I woke up happy because last night I stayed up a little bit and started writing in my journal (personal journal not this one) about what I could possibly want to do I’m the future job wise.

Today I finally realized that women are not worth the struggle. I came to the conclusion that if a girl doesn’t put in the same amount of effort into the relationship as you, then she isn’t worth it. This girl has been causing me nothing but stress and anxiety recently and I’m tired of it. It’s not that I won’t ever text her again, I just won’t be putting as much time into the relationship. It’s as simple as that. I’m waiting for someone who puts effort into our relationship instead of someone who expects me to do everything.

Just about an hour ago, I took what @Deadpoolgupta said to heart.

When I saw this, I was playing video games and like he said, sabotaging myself since I didn’t do anything physically demanding all day today. So what did I decide to do you ask? I got my ass off of my nice and comfortable bed and ran an 8 minute mile. Ive never been able to run an 8 minute mile before in my entire life, even when I was in peak physical condition. That means I pushed myself to my limits. I damn near passed out on the treadmill. But I didn’t give up. Even when it seemed impossible, I kept going till I was barely able to breathe of feel my toes. I seriously almost threw up after I was done. Me being able to do this proves I’m capable of more than I think. Fuck porn. I’m stronger than these constant urges. I believe I will never relapse again. Porn is something only weak men do to hide from there day to day issues. Real men face those challenges head on and never even think of taking the easy way out. You all are capable of so much more than you think, you just have to be confident in yourself and your actions. I believe in all of you.


Looks like you’re back in the game keep going


@Deadpoolgupta I’ll use this momentum to keep pushing harder everyday, thanks man!


Day 5
July 15, 2020

I feel great. I feel alive. I’m happy. I thank God that I didn’t relapse the past few days since those were the days I used to relapse. Even though I felt depressed on days 2 and 3 I didn’t use that as an excuse to relapse like I used to. I’m not gonna lie to you guys/girls, it’s been a battle every single day since I last relapsed. It wasn’t easy at all. I was going through some personal problems that I didn’t tell anyone about, not even you guys. But I’m glad to say I’m better than ever now that I dealt with that personal problem head on.

Today i didn’t get a lot of sleep so I didn’t really feel great during the morning. My stomach also hurt, probably from pushing myself so hard last night lol. So I ate some food and it felt a little better. Recently I’ve been super interested in producing music so I spent a lot of the day researching. I’ve always wanted to make some type of music but I was never super confident in myself back then, but now I feel like it’s a possibility. It’s another way to express myself so I think it’s a very good hobby to have even if I don’t make a lot of money from it, but you never know lol.

In the middle of the day my parents invited me to do a workout with them so I decided to go through with it. I had no intention of working out today because I felt like trash but I basically forced myself to go through with it. It was an intense 20 minute Tabata workout with a half mile run at the end of it. It was tough. But I pushed myself past my limits. I feel so good when it comes to working out recently, maybe it’s because I haven’t done it in awhile? I just know that I feel great afterwards. It’s been hard to not smile lately lol so I’m super happy about that.


Also, I just finished my class with a passing grade!!! I now have some free time since I have no classes currently. But I’ll use that extra time for productivity!


Day 8
July 18, 2020

It’s been awhile since I’ve updated you guys so that’s why I’m uploading this in the morning rather than later in the day lol. I’ve been doing great recently. I’m truly happy with myself and my life. It’s a great feeling that I don’t experience too often. I feel like I have also been more talkative and energetic and I’m not sure if it’s because of no fap or if it’s something else.

Like I said the post before, I finished my class! This means that I have so much more free time during the day. Believe it or not, I haven’t had an urge to watch porn ever since I finished my class. That’s also the time I started getting into making music. I spent basically all my free time into researching, listening to music that inspires me, and actually practicing. I’m really liking it so far, it’s a way for me to express myself and I love it. It’s also very relaxing and I feel like I can put my full focus on it when I’m in the process of making music, which is pretty rare for me. I’m getting excited just talking about it lol.

Also, I feel super confident in myself. I’m usually pretty bad when it comes to self confidence and believing in myself, but the past few days I’ve had this huge boost of confidence. Like when I talk to people, I have been carrying the conversation and have been making the people around me laugh more than ever. I just feel great, and it’s hard to put my feelings into text if that makes sense.


Great that you’re feeling better!

I felt great for the past few weeks, and I remember reading your post about your struggles and feeling bad, and I thought to myself “How could anyone feel that way? Life is great!”. Now I’m in a big slump with low energy and low motivation. I don’t think the hot and humid (I had to think for 30 seconds to find this word) weather isn’t helping either.

Coincidentally, I’ve been watching YouTube / using Instagram again since two days, which is when my dip started.

I’m happy that I’m helping my mom in the house today, as she’s moving the furniture (again :p).
Even though it is physically/mentally difficult for me to keep going.

If you make the best of your time while you feel great, I’ll make the best of my time while I’m feeling like shit!

Take care


It really is strange how quickly things could change. The same thing happens to me, it’s almost like a cycle lol.

Social media definitely does affect me when it comes to productivity because all I want to do is still through them all day lol. I deleted Instagram and now I’m working on getting rid of YouTube but it is hard.

I feel like you should push even harder when you run low on motivation/will power. Trust me, it’s easier said than done lol. But it’s good that you’re helping your mom because hopefully it will give you a boost in the right direction!

God bless!


Your efforts and hardwork is expressing in your posts, you were miserable, unmotivated a few days back but now you’re rocking
Keep that momentum and move forward on life. Hope you become a great boxer, I’m not a fan of sports but I’d love to watch you win the championships :wink:


Thanks @Deadpoolgupta !! I’ll be sure to not let you guys down!

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Day 9
July 19, 2020

It’s crazy to see such a high number on my day counter. I honestly haven’t been counting the days and instead I’ve just been living in the moment, not worrying about anything. I’m still super happy. It’s been awhile since I’ve been consistently happy, but I’m not complaining lol. I haven’t been texting a lot of people, but I might hangout with some people next week so that’s fun. I’m not really looking for a relationship or anything like that but whatever happens happens lol. I doubt I’ll catch feelings with anyone though because I’ve been focusing on myself ever since my old crush became distant with me.

Also, I’ve had zero urges to go back to my old ways of pmo. Which is amazing! I have a feeling that I’m never going to relapse again. I made that mistake last time at day 38, but I will not repeat my mistake of relapsing.

I haven’t made a beat yet but I’m going to try and make one right now. I just need to be more consistent with it, that’s the only way I’ll get better at making music.

Also, sorry about changing my pfp so much :sweat_smile:



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During all my best streaks I never counted the days…Just occasionally check my streak once in a while to enjoy the process and progress.
Trust the process bro. And don’t forget to enjoy it :slight_smile:


Day 13
July 23, 2020

Sorry I haven’t been updating you guys recently, I have been kind of distant with this app, which I see as progress. I’ve been having urges here and there but they are nothing compared to the urges I was getting on my last streak. It seems like these 13 days have been going by so fast. But like @Ash_Matt said,

I’ve been enjoying every second of it!! It’s almost like I’m already seeing some benefits of no fap at an early stage. I’ve just been living my best life.

I feel as if music played a huge role in my recent happiness. I got these new speakers for my room and I’ve been listening to some of my favorite music while in my room. Which almost always puts me in a better mood.

Also, I hung out with a girl I used to like not too long ago, and I really enjoyed it. There was no awkward pauses or stuttering, and my voice did not go up an octave (higher pitch) like it usually does when I talk to someone pretty. I feel better than ever honestly. I’m going to hangout with someone else today too and just have a good time.


Day 14
Friday, July 24 2020

I’ve had zero urges at all recently. I’m not sure how or why, but I’m glad it’s happening. I feel like I don’t have time to even think about fapping because I’m so busy with hanging out with family and making music that it’s just not on my mind at all. That’s why I haven’t been updating you guys as frequently as I used to. I do occasionally check in with everyone that helped me along the way and I get so happy to see how far they have come. You are all strong for trying to get rid of this addiction. It’s the most difficult thing you could do for yourself, but in the end it’s all worth it. Conquer this, and you can achieve anything in life. I truly believe that.

On another note, probably no one knows about a rapper named logic. But he just released his final album ever today. I’ve been listening to his music for 5 whole years and watched him progress as a person and a musician. I remember first stumbling across his music and falling in love with it. I even went to go see him live in Las Vegas. I was almost brought to tears because he was so close. He was and still is someone I look up to. My role model. He made me the person I am today and I’m proud to say that. He decided this will be his final album because he now has everything he’s every dreamed of having which is a wife, son, and loving friends. He felt as if he achieved happiness within himself through everything he has been through. Logic was dealt a bad hand in life, but he somehow overcame the odds and started making millions of dollars doing what he loves. And after a period of time, he realized that he finally made his dream a reality. His dad was never there for him as a kid so he always knew his purpose in life was to be the best dad for his son. And now he’s able to do that because he took a risk to follow his dreams. Logic is a big part of me as a person so that’s why I wrote so much about him. I’m sad he’s done making music, but I’m glad he has found true happiness after going through so much as a kid. This gives me hope to follow my dreams and make it become reality. #Rattpack


I just wanted to let you guys know that I’m seriously done watching porn. No matter what. I’ve never been more sure than I am now about never watching porn again. The benefits are literally life changing so I would be stupid to go back to my old ways. This is only the beginning of a greater future for myself, and the people I’m closest with like my family. No matter how strong the urges are, I will never succumb to it. I’m forever done with porn and just saying that makes me so happy. I woke up smiling this morning because I realized how much better this addiction has gotten and it’s all thanks to you guys :grin: . Before this app, I would only be able to go 4 to 7 days minimum. But now it’s almost as if porn isn’t even something I would want to spend my time looking at. So I just wanted to say thank you to everyone that helped me through the easy and hard times. I am forever grateful.