To be honest, soon after feeling calm, I got those same urges again. Now, I am confused again. So, I am again reading these posts. The battle is real.
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@HappySoul Right now, we are very addicted bhai. We need daily reminders of why we are doing this in order to succeed. If you won that battle yesterday, that’s a beautiful thing, but today is a new day, with its own challenges.
I have seen a similar pattern with myself. Four weeks ago I blocked Internet access to everything but 30-35 websites which were supposed to be completely safe. Google, Bing, YouTube, everything was in Restricted Mode and locked in place. My sister was the admin so I couldn’t change settings myself. Even then I still found ways to access many P gifs and some soft P movies. After relapsing, I could see that if I am still relapsing even after so much effort has been put into blocking everything, that I lack AWARENESS and CONTENTMENT in my life.
I cannot be fully aware of how harmful PMO has been to me if I am spending 2 hours searching for loopholes and planning ways to relapse around my blocking system. And I cannot be content in my life if that even seems like a good idea to me.
I know myself. If the entire Internet is blocked on my PCs and smartphone, I could use someone else’s device to relapse. I could buy a new device. I could find a DVD in the house with some sexual scenes, or a channel on the TV. This is what I would do in a state where I lack awareness and I’m deeply unhappy.
So my advice will be that daily reminders and working everyday on goals that make us happier and healthier and content in our lives are far more important than any blocking system.
Great job in beating those thoughts yesterday. Today is a new day, win today’s battle too.
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The thing is that I am already trying my best to do all of these and I succeed to a great degree too. But I think the only remaining factor is TIME. I made good plan, I defeated urges, I put blocks, I addressed my resistant thoughts and mental traumas, I am accountable, I thought what is missing in my life and I took steps to improve my life. I did everything which came to my mind and which I learned. I cannot think of anything more OTHER THAN THE FACT THAT THESE URGES WILL STILL BE THERE FOR SOME DAYS AND ONLY TIME WILL HEAL. GOD WILL HEAL MY HEART WITH TIME AND I NEED TO BE PATIENT. LET IT BE SO!
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@HappySoul Don’t worry about urges, they will never go away. I spoke to someone on Sunday who has over 20+ years free from PMO. They still get urges. The difference is that with practise and awareness, urges are overcome much easier. And with enough time, we will have improved our lives so much that PMO will not be an option we consider anymore.
We can always overcome the urges. If it comes back again, we will overcome that one too. And we will be mindful of what is happening in our lives and what emotions we’re experiencing which are leading to these urges, so we can overcome the root of the problem.
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I am thinking of developing a DELAY AND DESTROY tool. I can make a box and I can write all triggers on papers and put those papers in that box after folding. I will think, “I am procrastinating this slip. I can do it later. Right now, I have important things to do. I will keep procrastinating it. In the meantime, 60-90 days will be crossed. Then of course, I will burn those papers without unfolding. I will not be triggered because I will forget those trigger names by then. I have a similar experience. I once threw away a s toy which was used by me for relapsing, after crossing about 60 days and I could do it really easily. So, I can do it in this case also. These days, triggers are coming to me at a high rate. So, this may help a lot.”
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Dont think about no fap ,triggers.just wake up and do your work until you have zero energy.
when your energy will down,due to hard work you will sleep automatically.the next will come and do the same process.by which day by day we can do this.
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In flatline, I feel like doing nothing. But still I will try.
Brother what is flatline?? I am a begginner I don’t know.i don’t watching porn and mastrubation.i am only doing my work.
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Good, sometimes not knowing some things also helps. Flatlines are periods during which we feel low energy and withdrawal symptoms.
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Ohh ok brother.i am not addicted to porn like 5 yrs 7 yrs.i addicted only 6 7 months.i am trying to keep me busy .I don’t know anything
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That is very good. Your 90 days reboot will not be basic reboot. It will be a full fledged reboot which most of us will get after one or two years. Keep going strong.
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How I easily defeated p at a decent streak once upon a time?
About one and a half year ago, I was living in a hostel. One of my friends exchanged laptops for one day because he had to give a test and his laptop made noise which could disturb others in the exam hall. I was using his laptop. I downloaded a motivational song from youtube and then I searched for vlc player in the start menu. To my surprise, a p video came in the search results. I could understand by reading its name. I closed the start menu. For a few seconds, I was disturbed with a little anger. He was a fapper. I am a Nofapper. But I did not get any urges. 
That is the good part. I just opened the motivational song, heard it and closed the laptop and then went to sleep. There was no insomnia, no compulsiveness. I knew that p was in front of me. I was alone in my room. But I just did not want to relapse and there was no struggle whatsoever. Oh my holy father, that person was me at that time! And today, I knowingly try to find glimpses of soft p even amidst a lot of blocks, due to the shitty contamination of my mind. I want to be free again. I will be free again. We can all do this, brothers. 
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What was you streak at that time brother?
I do not remember exactly. But it was a good streak. I was not aware of my days count at that time.
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My DELAY AND DESTROY tool is ready for use.
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What is this tool???
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That’s a nice took man.
I believe in you, you have what it takes.
Stay strong brother we will conquer ourselves together
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It is so nice that sometimes when we get tired of thinking, God suddenly gives a very new idea. It is just like a scientist suddenly waking up from sleep at 2 am and taking some notes of something unique which just came to his mind. Hope this works. Wish me luck!
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Reporting: I was filling an online form for a job. I was using an online pdf editor. There, I found a new option of converting html to pdf. I thought, “Let me check whether my dns blocker is working here also. If not, I will have to get rid of this site.” I typed few p**n websites (very bad idea; should have tried something else) in it. Fortunately, nothing came except the pop ups of age confirmation and some captions in preview. But for a fraction of a second, some images appeared. I closed it and used my delay and destroy tool. It was followed by a little softcore peeking. I saved myself somehow but it was an unsound activity and hence worth reporting. But, I also used that website for a good purpose. I downloaded some webpages given in the ‘Motivation for Beginners by Legends’ topic. Those websites (nofap, reddit etc.) were blocked by dns but I wanted to access those success stories.
I am having some urges now. I will come out clean from this urge period.
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